Reaching for the stars

2007-06-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

for those still wondering... i've in a sense officially closed down this blog. the archives are still there for memories' sakes. but yea, i'm closing down this blog.

i'm sry to have had to leave on such a sour note, but ohwell... life goes on!

thanks for having visited.

2007-05-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

PERFECT. PERFECT. EVERY ONE OF YOU CHOSE THE PERFECT DAY TO SCREW ME UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE OUT. I TRIED DAMMIT I TRIED. DONT FAULT ME FOR THAT. I TRIED. DONT PUSH ME BEYOND MY LIMIT I TELL YOU. I'M BREAKING DOWN. LONGKUAN CAN TESTIFY TO TT. DONT PUSH ME PLEASE...

2007-05-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i spent enuff time studying anot. i feel so accomplished, yet so... like er... stone? like i did nth liddat? ohwellz

today onli had 2 periods. chionged PW like mad to set things straight. i had 5 hrs, did a wee bit of phy, slept, slacked, etc. ohwell. muz smile! ppl ask me take a break. i super tired la.

been going thru lots of battles these few weeks. and the fact that i'm lazy doesnt help things. i'm feeling torn cos i ned to do work, but when i do work i always cant get this cant get tt. i've to face the fact that i'm onli here cos of some sheer luck and some hard work. but i dunno whether i'm working hard when i always can onli solve a few meagre qtns in a few hrs per time. and somehow here i feel as tho i cant ask anybody for help. i dunno.

sometimes i feel as tho rjc life is so fun, so vibrant. yet i know its onli cos of a few small factors. once these are removed, i'm gone. trying to branch out my life, but its very difficult, esp when i alrdy have these few deep main roots planted in them. and tt's why i always beg of them not to leave my life. ohwell...

these few weeks have been hard, but so has the past year plus. battle after battle, emotional beating after emotional beating, painful decision after painful decision. and i juz gotta stride on. (read the below post on my colourgenics thing) i cant give up, i cant back down, i can onli move forward. Onli God can always be there for me, yet sometimes i dont seek His help... wah biang

today exco result after exco result revealed. haha many of my frens have assumed various positions. congrats to them. for me... after 4yrs in the battlefield, it realli feels weird not being part of it. realli feels left out.

i feel like i'm treading super dangerous ground. PMEF (onli guy in RJC doing this combi), BB as my onli cca. and my friendship and all built upon very few ppl (i can count with my right hand). my onli prayer here is they'll nvr leave me. u know how much i depend on u guys. i tink u who read will know who u are la huh.

i better start reading PDL. been lagging like mad!eekz

i think i'm in deep shit. seriously. i landed myself in it. will see come end may if i realli do. sigh...

wat was it abt this blog supposedly having a makeover to be a happy one?

c'est un choix très difficile. comme aujourd'hui, même si je sais la verité, ou je pense que c'est la verité, c'est encore très difficile d'accepter ce qui c'est passé. je suis très fatigué, mais je sais aussi que je peux pas faillir. c'est ma obligation et il faut que je reussi. JE DOIS ETRE FORT! garghhhh

pourquoi? pourquoi? pourquoi pas?

set me free... someone set me free...

2007-05-01T14:06:00.001+08:00

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.
Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions are really beyond your capabilities. This has resulted in experiencing considerable anxiety and stress. You are looking for confirmation from your nearest and dearest that you have the ability and strength to fulfil all of your needs and to be completely self-sufficient.When matters don't go right for you - you tend to become inhibited and blame others for your inadequacy. You feel that there must be a way out from all the trials and tribulations that you have been experiencing of late and you are right - there is a solution - so don't give in, keep searching.

okie larh not 100% accurate, but some parts are realli very true... ohwell haha

2007-04-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

things got off a lil rocky today, with me needing a lil help here and there, but yea i'm confident things are improving. i like that confidence i can feel, and i hope that you can too.

i'm REALLY not used to seeing red instead of yellow. that familiar yellow and blue... ahhhhh please dont rob me off my memories and all... =(

pe was... bomb. i onli touched the ball once, and when i did i provided moments around my CG, and fell onto the floor. scraped both my arms. and a lot of mud. super wet eeyer... i find mr ortega opening up to our class. he's getting very very lame and funny! esp with tt stupid dog xD

played bball today after pe. part of my campaing to make my life less dependant on few factors. my first step was joining black belt :p

the talk felt good. i hope u're feling good abt it. i am. i will make sure tihngs turn out well! i'm waiting for tt lunch.

maybe i was too tired or sth, hardly did any work today. tried doing math. juz kept getting stuck, onli to find out later (longkuan helped me) that i missed out on the simplest details (eg GC radian mode, x value shd divide by 2)... crap la.

met up with cheeks and lk for dinner! subway, den went to cut my hair. ahh nice hairstyle again. not too short, onli trim a lil, and thin it. yay!

den bowled. wah lau i'm very pissed! THE LAST PIN ALWAYS CEASES TO FALL TO MAKE TINGS A STRIKE/ SPARE. in 2 games it happened at least 5 times. idiot leh =(

but fun! =D

ohwell, tml muz do phy le. i've been saying tt for how long eekz.

totally tired.

nite!

2007-04-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

Haha u guys must have realized that a lot of my posts are gone. I’ve decided, no point brooding and emoing myself away. No point. Thus my new blogskin too. Brighter, more cheerful, most optimistic!

Anyway, i went to bed, and started brain gymming. And its kinda working. My emotions seem to be leaving me. I’m planting negative thoughts in my mind, and then beating them down hard. Its working! Some ppl insist its gonna be a tough road ahead. I don’t deny, but I do remember myself being very determined. And its gonna work.

I’ll make sure it works, and that’s thanks to ur affirmation on Friday nite. Why am I giving up the greater good juz for this small lil emotion inside me? Why am I hurting other(s)? for wat? No way. No way. It may not be an easy road ahead, but “when the going gets tough, the tough get going”. So there.

Give me a bit more time. I assure you success.

=)

2007-04-25T22:21:00.001+08:00

+Rebel Pipers+"You can't judge others by their actions and judge yourself by your intentions"+creideamh... dóchas... gaol...+ says:
i shall be a "lightbulb"
+Rebel Pipers+"You can't judge others by their actions and judge yourself by your intentions"+creideamh... dóchas... gaol...+ says:
hahaha

my reply:
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
can i turn you on then?
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
:D

OMG SOMEONE GIVE ME A WHEELCHAIR

2007-04-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

I GOT THE FRENCH SCHOLARSHIP!!!!! SO DID SHAUNA AND JING PING AND SUJUN AND A FEW OTHERS!!! YAYY!!!

2007-04-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

/linky\ says:
we decided to take a stand
/linky\ says:
we koped one of those tables near our lodge
/linky\ says:
and claimed it as our own

my reply:
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
siao u wanna take a stand
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
den u take table to sit down
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
wat kind of STAND is that?
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
HAHA

HAHA indeed. nice one linky, to spark me off after a weird 3 hour nap amidst thunderous weather. HAHA!

2007-04-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

wahaha finally i can blog. sometimes can sometimes cant. most of e time when i REALLY want to i cant. but since i can i might as well blog rite? (i shd be mugging!)

saturday was feel good, and feel weird day. i dunno. in a sense i led cell group discussions with these 3 strong questions that i wanna share with everyone.

"How do I know what God wants?"
- pray about it, read God's word. juz like if you don't interact with your fren, how would u know what he wants?

"How do i surrender to God?"
- you know God's way, and sometimes its in conflict with your way. u gotta give up yors to follow God's. He knows wat's best for you. Trust your Friend.

"How do i know when i've surrendered to God?"
- when u do something tt's not in a sense, your will, but, u feel AT PEACE.

yayyy. i felt so good. and the message for this week was very strong. pastor eric taught abt how to act upon what you know. and a lot of stuff. i could juz apply it to my life. so nice!

i wish the road to the mrt was longer. then i can talk more with sheila and michelle or other peeps and catch up with em after church.

ahhh

for the first time in... since AQ planning or sth i stayed up till 2+am? i bet sharyn fell asleep in church. havent asked if i won the bet. but i think i'll win. ;)

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today: wah sei. feast sia.

i went to orchard to meet my family for lunch. see chio bu in popular! wah sei.

then i go for lunch.

wat did i eat?

steak, chawan mushi, tempura (prawn and chicken), eel, agadeshi tofu, sashimi (prawn, squid, salmon, swordfish) and topped up with a 3 scoop ice cream! all served by a VERY CUTE AND CHIO WAITRESS.

omg... (okie pardon me i juz needed to be a lil crazy today)

i still cant believe i ate so much for lunch.

went home slept, then went for a refreshing jog! nice weather, nice music, nice feeling. jog. ahhh...

and i made a lot of fantasies. (dun think sick). like champions for pipes and drums, etc etc...

ms tang called juz now. and i think, for e first time in my life, i realli understood her and understand "the big picture".

i realli find, as longkuan said, this week a week of revelations. i feel changed, transformed. i hope it realli does amount to something.

here's a song by Geoff Bullock. "Just let me say". beautiful song. the lyrics, ah the lyrics. sang in church yesterday.

Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens can tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend
Just makes me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend

Dear Father Lord,

I just want to tell you that i love You. for 3 years i've been missing the point. its always been about what You can do for me. now i wanna think about what i can do for You! Dear Father Lord i really pray for Your hand upon me as I discover more about You, and slowly transform my life into a more Godly life, a life to PRAISE YOU, TO HONOUR YOU, TO SURRENDER MY LIFE TO YOU LORD. I pray for strength as i embark on this journey of transformation, of revelation, of maturity, of leading a purpose driven life Lord. I thank you Lord for all you have given me and where you've brought me to. I thank you Lord for all my friends around me who have supported me, to help me and to guide me Lord. I thank you Lord! In Jesus' name i pray, AMEN.

=)

2007-04-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

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NAPFA: 28 points. dang C for standing broad...

i feel so blessed with all my frens around me...: Geoff, Michelle, Hilary, Melody, Linky, Samuel Ching, Chennie, Kiat Wee, Longkuan and all others... thnx! =)

went for e french talk. wah lau couldnt hear no nuts, din learn a single thing la. they were reading off fr e script and can even read wrongly. wth. then after tt we were walking to e mrt, saw a couple making out. my nice french frens stood around them AND STARED. i'm like WTH?! and theen they slowly walk past them somemore and all... wah lau..

nt to mention jing ping made me JAY WALK THRU CTE. wth?! and sophie ah... wah lau. they all tsktsk... haha

robertson quay is such a beautiful place! i wanna live there.... ahhh..

i put hope in tml again. hopefully... hopefully...

to leave u all with sth to laugh abt:

1. Go to Google.com
2. Click on Maps.
3. Click on "Get directions".
4. From New York
5. To Oslo
And read line # 23.
If you laugh, repost this.

and this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxeTH2KbQZI&mode=related&search=

FUNNY!

but no i'm far fr feeling alright...

2007-04-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

yay i can blog again! whee! =)

anyway, today... kinda wasnt a very good day. well, breakfast with my dad was good. then having a major sudden stomachache and running back home to use e toilet wasnt. then going to e polyclinic and seeing a queue longer than tt of hello kitty's wasnt. then waiting for 2hrs and thinking abt being late and all for TGIGF wasnt. after waiting 2hrs the doc tell me no prob, i say gimme 2weeks mc he say dunneed, 1 week stil not ok go back and see him again wasnt. (i felt hot-headed like crazy liao) then see all my medicine "may cause drowsiness". then bus take so long to come. then go lift the lift door close liao open, close liao open. TMD. at tt point i realli couldnt take it, and i know i shdnt have said it, but i was so pissed liao i shouted the... yea the f... yea and stormed up the stairs.

anyway my dad was like "chill chill". haha. anyway went there. and talked a lot of cock with geoff, lamzy, lk. went wild in some sense xD havent felt so good in ages la, in tt respect. =) yea... went for lunch outside with captain, lk, lamzy and geoff at subway. wah chio bu there. hottt!!! ok nvm. as u may have noticed RJC hasnt changed me la huh =p

anyway, coming back tt time wah lau eh. the gates all closed. then we walked like total 2.5km to get to e main gate after TRYING to climb e gate but to no avail... hehe! went back and watched "Facing the Giants" again. the memories flooded back, but now with personal experience, from AQ. the same funny scenes, the same emotions... and when i saw david's dad standing up again... tears came back. longkuan cried too... realli reminds me of God's strength and how great our God is! yea...

anyway, interlude. today was quite... a test. quite a big one... all 3 in one day. wah biang super ultimate la. sighh... pain ah pain ah... =(

but going back to church felt good! seeing all my excons peeps again! aunti phui fan, lejon, sam, violet, zach, anyi (i see them in sch anyway), sheila, charisse... whee! =) and mel, melody(oopz sry!) shuqin hui fang and paul. yay! haha sheila said i was super happy. and she said i more tanned (cos of AQ) and slimmed down again. ohwell! haha had a nice short chat with her. pity not much. ohwell... sometime sometime... hehe

sian gotta study! but like got inertia... dun feeel like... my engine cant start up and rev leh... how how? bleah

welcome to RJC

2007-04-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

hehe i can blog again! i juz deleted history den can blog le. maybe this works? shrugs... haha

anyway, these few days have been... weird. since AQ's ended i've been eating and eating non-stop. as in SERIOUSLY. eat eat eat eat eat. and it doesnt help tt my leg's stil recovering. and now its kinda recovered i dio cold. shat. nvm i shall still go jog later. musnt let my phenomenal (relative to my normal) stamina go down e drain. somemore i've onli been training long distance and not short distance, need to build up on short distance bursts, be NAPFA, which is like next week onli?

i find this blog irritating sometimes la. i very emo and all neeeda blog to vent tt time cant type. now i dun realli need it juz checking if it works den it works. crap la haha. been feeling slightly emo these few days. my frens oso. a lot of em been pouring out their troubles. ppl are getting sick, ppl are getting stressed. cca season stepping in and all. stay strong ppl, stay strong! i'll be here for whoever needs a listening ear as much as i can ahha =)

emo... jealousy... hehe dont u ppl feel sometimes tt ur body's hormones and emotions sometimes work against logic and reasoning? i cant say more at this juncture but yea its been happening to me. and i've talked to frens. and they say its normal. but crap its very irritating. and its misleading (to myself). it doesnt help tt emotions do work strongly on me and affect my ability to work, so whenever i'm emo, tho i'm awake and ready to work, i cant. cos i'm so affected by it i cant think straight and i cant summon the energy to lift up my pen. and there goes my 1 or 2hr breaks, which are there cos French is 5-7 so i reach home like 8+pm everyday, thus its actl my study breaks.

and sharyn's rite. RJC is crazy. all our tests and all are AFTER holidays. the meaning of holidays, according to the Oxford dictionary, is "leisure time away from work devoted to rest or pleasure" remember. AWAY FROM WORK DEVOTED TO REST. now which part of it tells RJC that its used for studying? its totally contradictory! during assembly the whoever whoever (nt like i care) had this ppt on our CTs, and last point was "make use of ur june hols well to study". nabei. piss me (and sharyn) off nia.

today supposed to go out shopping with my dad. cannot. why? study. study. study. some stuff i dun understand, bo bian. argh. go do work liao. its getting real confusing. so much stuff, i dun understand, jump here jump there. den now it seems as tho i've done work, but there's still e same amount of work yet to be done. sighhhh...

and there's been a lot of ppl telling me "hey, u no gf meh? i dun believe". i smile at them, but inside me, i give a deep long "SIGHHHHHHH"...

Welcome to RJC.

A BLOG POST. FINALLY!

2007-04-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

I CAN ACCESS MY BLOG!!!! like finally finally =) its eccentric tho, dunno when i'll get to access it again =S

these 2weeks since i last blogged has been a lot abt AQ la. its been a really long ride, esp last week.

we had bike training at bishan park with BL's leg. damn fun! first day i used raleigh, then it was super easy pwning e others. den i decided to be nice and trade with BL for his super screwed-up bike, which was stuck in 7th gear. biang eh super pain can! i was like "WAH HOW TO RIDE THIS?" and obviously everyone owned me. all i could do was sing "san lun che, pao de kuai, shang mian zuo ge lao tai tai..." xD

the 2nd bike training: chase skirt session. we see chio bu we keep biking around that area to keep looking. and bike damn fast somemore. SUPER FUNNY. reminds me of my "childhood days" omg hehe. gabby's juz super funny, the way he laughs and smiles when we talk abt these kinda stuff lol!

and then we watched "facing the giants" wah sei honestly before this i was very very scared. i wasnt sure i was ready for AQ at all, due to all the various factors like me not actl being there for full trainings or performing the full workouts. not to mention none of the hikes i'd attended had been successful for me physically. this was the point where God started to work things in me. This movie was super touching, super motivational! It reminded me that AQ shd NOT be abt AQ itself but be abt God, and God cares abt AQ cos he cares about US. Therefore, in all we do, HONOUR GOD. Do my best and leave the rest to God. Trust in Him to pull u thru and he can work miracles! and as i shall explain later, He realli did. <3>

fri nite: with lack of sleep due to a lot of unexpected events on thurs nite, i was getting a lil scared again. like i wasnt prepared mentally. but images of "facing the giants" kept me going. i code-name Raleigh as Mercedes (cos of its super pro suspension. like merc air-suspension liddat) and yea we sleep at 10pm.

sat morn: 3am wake up. SUPER TIRED. i'm like "SHIT SHIT DIE DIE". eat breakfast, keep wanting to shit, pee, vomit, wtv. anxiety creeps into me. i try to keep a confident face in front of my guys. we set off at 4.15. its now or nvr...

we reach northbrooks at 4.30. from then till 6am: trying to sleep whenever i could. super super tired. and keep going to toilet to shit and pee cos of my gastric pains....

and then God started working His miracles. miracle after miracle.

1) Bing Long suddenly gave me some chinese medicine outta nowhere. told me it works for stomach pain, gastric wtv. i take it. immediately felt better.

2) Kangjie brought red bull. I drank half a can. suddenly fatigue gone.

3) I looked up into the sky suddenly. Saw this bright shining star, shining for me non-stop from 5+ till even the start of the race. It made me confident that God would be with me all the way.

6.35pm: GOGOGOGOGOGO!!!!!!!!!!

the race started off well. we were building constant good pace. out of northbrooks, toward some bridge into some industrial estate. i kept thinking of e song "Lord I lift Your name on high!". we reach our first checkpoint well and good. abt 5km. then...

OH SHIT. i start feeling the bit of knee joint pain that i experienced (read 1-2 posts down). i decide to use deep heat. ahh feels better. den we had to climb along this fence around an industrial building for 1km. damn idiot. easy to sprain foot la. given my knee oso... over long-gangs, pot holes etc...

we're finally outa there and running here there everywhere. things are good. we're persevering well and overtaking teams. run for abt 9km. we're outta the stupid jungle and wtv weird place. i see an mrt track. i was THINKING "yay yishun! near northbrooks". den, i turned to e left, saw YIO CHU KANG MRT. yes u guessed it: 5km LENTOR AVENUE. SHIT!!!

and then my knee acted up. excruciating pain when i bend it. no... faith was draining outta me. things got bleak. but i pushed. for the team, for 60th, for God. i kept telling myself "With God, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE". "GOD IS HERE. HE'LL TAKE CARE OF ME. PUSH PUSH PUSH!!!" and on we went. stride after stride, jolt after jolt of pain, on we went. metre by metre, we finally reached yishun! and on to northbrooks. by that time we were FIRST! we overtook the 5th coy team (whom we were to know were made up of naval divers and commandos) near northbrooks!

when we reached. i juz collapsed on e floor. (mind u this was onli e first leg. still got 2 legs to go) downed powergel, gulped water like mad, then waterbag spill water all over me. 5min break. we're "ready" (not realli, but no choice rite?) to go. start running. oh no. feeling super super cold. cos of the water spilt over me and the lump of deep heat i spammed onto my knee joint. crap la. we couldnt really run much. shawn started cramping like mad. i din know how to run with my kneecap liddat. sigh... THEN I CRAMPED. all of a sudden. i juz collapsed on the floor screaming in pain. wee pin works miracles. he quickly chionged over, stretched me like crazy, rubbed my calf like crazy and i recovered in abt 15sec. pro anot he?

then the meaning of "Lord I lift your name on high" dawned on me. or rather how i'd interpret it for my race:

"You came from Heaven to earth to show the way

From the Earth to the cross my debt to pay

From the cross to the grave

From the grave to the sky

LORD I LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH"

God came down as Jesus to suffer for us. To pay our debts. This race, this pain, how much can tt be if i realli wanna run this race for God? I must run in the name of the Lord and GLORIFY HIM!

i teared. and then continued. and pushed. on we went until the biking point. MS PAN WAS THERE! yay so happy to see her! we got our bikes, and off we went. actl i'd expected some crap. my left knee cannot bend how to bike? so in e end i used my left knee to push wtv i can, and right knee to do most of e work. push and push. for flat road i could onli alternate bet gear 3-4, with occasional gear 5-6 bursts. into sembawang park. and then to BB GB campsite. den wee pin cramped. both legs. i tell u, its e worst when u cramp on a bike. when one cramps he juz collapses in pain, and wee pin has to get off e bike and make sure he doesnt get injured? omg... and then when we went into BB GB campsite. WEE PIN GOT LOST. no la, he cramped again and he came limping back. at tt time i was like "wah shit why am i nt helping my team mate?" dammit....

anyway we went to kayak. 3km. saw 12BR captain. damn nice guy hehe! juz his smile made me feel better lol! den after kayak go back to chiong biking... back into bike pick up point. leg3: 8km in SAT training ground. wah biang i tell u not good to bike in full blast sunlight hot weather and my knee liddat! every few minutes gotta spam deep heat to numb the pain, if nt it'lll hurt like shit. and then trying to keep up and not lag. luckily merc helped me with its good suspension. if nt i die. finally done. wee pin and i were talking abt how we miss our bed and sofa and soft drinks and desserts and wat not... damn funny!

anyway, outta e bikes. i had to run like a crab. like hopping sideways. its damn tiring. sian. we soon had to start walking cos shawn was cramping damn badly. not like i could run much either. at the final checkpoint, we heard we were 2nd. budden... we got overtaken by another open team. shitz. when we saw northbrooks, as weeps put it "can u see northbrooks shining so brightly? like got fireworks saying "WELCOME 60th OPEN!"" hehe!!!

the shitty ting was we were so tired we walked all e way to e finish line. and 5m fr e finishing line, my sole came out. like i jokingly put it "i gave my heart and SOLE for this race!" wahhh finish le. it was a super gruelling race that we took 7hrs 28min to finish. so happy! =)=)=)

post race, i took 2.21L of 100plus and 330ml of green tea within 2hrs. couldnt finish lunch lol! and i was served like a king cos i couldnt walk properly at all, got 6 medical officers, ms pan, mr tye, the AQ team and support team to look after me and my needs. so nice thanks! felt like a king xD

AND WE GOT 3RD! yay!! lost to those stupid commandos, naval divers, and the team tt overtook us final checkpt. but still yay! to a race i nvr tot i could complete, I PRAISE YOU LORD!

the trophies! and my soleless shoe. dang i had to throw my shoes away... sob sob! sentimental... =(

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sunday: SUMPTUOUS AMERICAN BREAKFAST AND ICED MOCHA AT COFFEE CLUB. and slept for 16hrs.

monday: wah sei today. limping around sch. tmd damn pain. had to take e lift here and there. being baika.. ohwell. and after sch went to seoul garden with sharyn. had so much fun piling food and cooking em! tried all sorts of stupid stuff and finally settled with marinating our meat in egg and garlic. =p ate non stop, damn full but continued to eat ice kachang and ice cream! hehe so much fun! good lunch with a good fren. felt so good! but i felt a lil bad afterwards... i was feeling real tired, and sharyn felt a lil down... all i could do was to accompany her for 30min and sing some Christian songs b4 my white flag came up... SORRY!! =(

i slept damn soundly on e bus. till 2 schoolgirls came up and yakked non stop. freaking irritating. nearly wanted to scold them. idiot.

but anyway yea. VERY LONG POST TODAY. enjoy guys! and remember, PRAISE THE LORD!

2007-03-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

(this post is R21)

i cant log in to my email, cant log in to my msn, can't access my blogger from my other comp. i cant log in nor sign in to my email and msn with this comp either.

i woke up from my nap, refreshed and wanting to start work. but NO. this 19inch piece of junk has to screw up on me. GOOD. NORTON AND MICROSOFT. GOOD. SCREW UP MY LIFE. YOU GOOD. YOU WIN. HAPPY?!

i'm keeping my nerves calm, trying to find a way to finish my work, trying to find a way to handle, oversee and run BOTH AQ and enrolment service. few ppl are co-operating, few things are getting done, my hw is in the dumps. till now i still havent gotten a single piece of work done. i have half a mind to start turning berserk. i have half a mind to summon the gorilla within me and wreak havoc, the onli thing stopping me is that i'll get 10sec of relief and 2hrs of torment after.

everyone expects the best from me. every aspect of life. i cant make a single mistake. a C5 in chinese, BOOM. a slight mistake in the proposal. BOOM. my holidays? ppl ask me to chill out and relax? screw man screw! i nvr had a holiday since sec1!

technology's laughing at me now. satan prob is too. i'm losing grip of myself... losing grip on everything in life... things are juz starting to get bleaker and bleaker. its juz the first 3 mths. i dunno how i'm gonna survive the next 1.5yrs, if i ever survive...

2007-03-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

Sprained my ankle today. Was on a run from tanah merah to simei. Sighhh… I dunno la, I think li ao is really rite abt me, I’m stupid. I’m spending my whole life chasing after things blindly and not being me. The pressure of the society is so great, and I’m blindy chasing. I can’t be me. I can’t be who I wanna be… why am I exercising so hard, killing my body bit by bit? Why do I care so much abt my Chinese C5? Why can’t I enjoy myself more? Why can’t I relax? Why why why?!

And I can’t blog. I cant access my blog. My frens can. I can’t. wth?

Primer orientation camp was fun, dragon-boating was fun. I wish I were back there.

I go to gatherings bringing my books to mug. Wth?

And I just cant stop thinking of you. Yes I’m thinking of you the whole time. U nvr realized it, and even if u do, it’ll juz bring me pain. PAIN.

Yes pain.

I’m the ONLY casualty for mock AQ. If my knee doesn’t recover in time… I’m gonna pull down the whole open team. Nice tot. nice…

2007-03-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

i think of SO MANY physics qtns when i'm on the mrt... cos now we're studyin newtonian physics... luckily ah boon clarified everything! so he's not so bad after all =D

went to j8 today to take passport foto. passed by a shop. heard the music, smelt the smell of new goods and heard the laughter of ppl. then passed by ntuc. smelt the familiar smell of markets and the joy of shopping in one. i realised...

I MISS SHOPPING!
those kind of days where i'm out with my fren(s) (i usually go out with 1 person onli. like i said months b4 its more personal and feels better. but of cos i go out with frens oso. tt's for going crazy xD) or family, and its a one full day shopping, and its raining outside... ah the atmosphere...

i wanna go shop! i realised how cooped up i've been with work and cca, going home at 8+pm, that going home at 1+pm is a MIRACLE and going to j8 makes me feel... good. omg la...

i'm sensitive to caffeine. drink a lil and cant sleep le, usually. now i down 3-4 cups of coffee and tea and all, and i juz plonk on my bed every nite. says a lot eh?

will be at camp till sunday noon. anything juz sms me! hopefully can use hp =D

2007-02-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

sigh... i realli feel like letting go this secret. its difficult to keep it within me, having only longkuan knowing. yet rite from the start i knew i had to keep it, to guard it, for months, perhaps years... pain ah pain... i wanna say so much, but i cant say anything...

and i'm realli sorry i broke down today... i shdn't have done it. sigh i vented my anger on ppl i should be thanking for being there for me, for being there for 60th? wth was i doing man? =S

tml got 2 major tests. and i dun feel prepared, no matter how much i studied. freak la...

spent 1 hr juz now typing AQ stuff non-stop. but got a lot of admin and queries settled. i think next year... gotta start planning AQ in oct, straight after promos...

i'm sick. down with a bad cold... sian...

i so envy others... ohwell....

this blog is turning into some emo angst journal eh? others blogs when angsting sometimes oso put smiley face de la... all i can put is:

='(

2007-02-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

Wow. $27 stolen from my wallet. GGXX. spoil my entire day after having fun taking e upper sec for drill. sheesh. drill was kinda fun. popping sweets into their mouth, trying to veer them into spaces. quite fun leh! and all the stupid funny stuff we'd do. hope they enjoyed it too... i think we need to start impacting the sec2s too...

oh ya. did i mention i absolutely detest politics? its... disgusting.

played tennis with xm! so fun! one moment blazing hot one moment rain coming... ki siao! haha my life in RJC is weird. i realli LOVE going to sch to meet my classmates and have fun, but i irk at the tot of all the workload... luckily ah boon and dr fang rock! =)

je te manque...

2007-02-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so... helpless and lost. yea its another breaking point. i've been fully into BB these 2 days and havent touched my work at all. trying to pull AQ together, trying to pull my frens together and at the same time, trying to put myself together. i shouldnt be blogging esp when i havent started on my pile of hw, but i realli tabuleh tahan. i need to vent. I'M SO STRESSED AND SO TIRED... ='(

yes its true work helps to forget abt you, but all the more i wish you were here. i so wish that you were here to comfort me, to help me and push me along. juz one smile. juz one sms.

then again, its wishful thinking.

i smile. but deep inside me, i'm breaking... breaking in front of everyone.

pourquoi... pourquoi moi? il me rend fou de penser à toi...

2007-02-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密紧紧
拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

2007-02-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

now for blogging abt today... had nightmares, couldnt sleep. i think onli 2 ppl know why, and i intend to keep it that way.

been feeling emo the whole day... no reunion dinner with my cousins tonite, and yea. that.

its been 1+ years? how long more can i keep this up? its painful, its torture. yet all i can do is smile. its painful, yet beautiful.

i've got this analogy:

busindre reel/ huang hun are my top fav songs (both of these songs always make me feel better when i'm down)

every now and then, nice, beautiful songs come and take them away from the "top of the charts"

but at the end of the day, its still busindre reel and huang hun. no doubt.

~~

ohwell, wtv it is, i'll be there. just say my name, and i'll be there.

2007-02-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday was amazing race. haha jean was hurrying me and all BUT I GOT THERE ON TIME! i was there in TEN MINUTES. fr home to botanic gardens. see i'm fast rite. haha! amazing race was... DIAO. we ran until no breath la, then here +30min there +30min in e end we gave up and decided to bond while taking long strolls. and we found that more fun! siti royce jean and me talk, sing song, have fun. i like! =)

then went prata house, then went home alone..

going out tt time, i wanted to take bus 106 cos it was raining. i missed the bus. nvm, 10min later one will come rite? WRONG.

i waited for TWENTY-FIVE MINUTES. in e end a 105 came and i boarded it. later, i turned around and saw 106. i'm ROYALLY PISSED AT SMRT.

changed to mrt and got to city hall to meet sheila. i made it at 5.45. very 'early' -.- toopid smrt

anyway, it was real fun! bought all the stuff we wanted, and SAW FIREWORKS!

and most of all, we caught up. =)

takkaire sheila! dun always become sick de... =S (u can read this when ur internet is up again)

2007-02-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

Should i try running for council? i have no idea... i need some advice gee =S

2007-02-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

this morning. go OG. celebrate birthday. get call. look at phone. "MS TANG". 0.O?

"hey, mr hodge called mr mag to call me to engage u. prominent rafflesian's mother passed away. needs bagpipe"

wah sei... call me in e afternn and i need to do the service by 3pm? PANIC.

2minutes b4 morning assembly starts : "call"

"hello?"
"Hi. is this yong qian? I'm Mr Hodge"
"(?!!!!) yes sir?"
"Wait, how do you know I'm mr Hodge?"
"er dunno sir"
"nvm i need u to come to my office now"
"(WAT? before morning assembly?!) yes sir"
"no i dun mean now. i mean after morning assembly"
"yes sir!"
'k cya. bye"

WTH. *breaks into cold sweat*

i enter mr hodge's room later, a 2M tall imposing figure twice my size. he STANDS UP and offers me to sit down. i'm shaking liao la....

but anyway yea, i was engaged to pipe. the whole GP lesson (mrs singh wasnt here) ppl tot i was possessed cos i was trying to slow march and figure out wat tunes to play... panic!

calls longkuan. no answer. sms longkuan. no answer.

basically the whole day i was running around, panicking, trying to get everything settled.

but everything went well in e end! the family was nice, the piping went well, everyone was happy. THANK GOD! =)

and drill went, okie i guess. their uniform was disappointing =S a lot in improper la sigh! =(

fun fun fun goig home with sam soh and bing long talking cock very fun! xD

2007-02-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

whee i feel so happy today! i studied quite a bit, exercised, had a good meal, DIN NAP AT ALL, had a good chat with my cousins (over msn)...

yay! =)

vday is coming. but its not special yet. i hope one day it will be. one day...

2007-02-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

wah biangz... seriously... i'm gonna frame up my HMT results to REMIND myself NEVER to get this kinda result again. NEVER.

wth? shit la =(

2007-02-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

haha today started off like CRAP. i mean, i'm half-asleep (as always) and i'm told i'm not in the MPS program. i'm like... "WAT?!" wah sheesh it made my day man. i somehow felt this whole sense of insecurity and all, and this feeling of rejection and failure...

it extended all e way into BB. seeing a poor fall-in din make my day any better. but somehow, during singspiration, i juz felt the sudden strength and the power from God. the songs sung were very powerful. and added with the tinge of nostalgia too. i juz suddenly tot of chee keen. the way he led singspiration, with all the passion, the love and the fun. and then i got inspired. and went to teach drill. at the end of it, i muz say i've nvr heard such good company drill in ages. =) its not realli perfect, but its a realli great improvement! yay!

ohwell, now to do... hw. biangz.

oh ya, biang in chinese is the MOST complicated word in the chinese language. omg i see liao i faint. =S

2007-01-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

wah sei... oopz i realised my posts for the past yr (up till now) have all been quite, no, very, sad. ohwell, life isnt ALL THAT BAD. still some stuff to smile abt la =) juz tt i'm more prone to rant on my blog than to blog when i'm happy? cos there's not much stuff i can do to rant... =S

anyway, today was physical hell. realli. i was literally crawling up the 6 storeys cos of my 12km jog + sets yesterday, and i heard today is napfa trial. i was like 0.0 + =O and ARGHH!!!!

the whole 2.4 i was nearly cramping, managing to juz scrape a 11min28sec. and after tt standing broad? when i was like bending down tt time during the swing pre-take-off, my thighs were screaming and burning. i onli managed a 216cm, which is below 220cm requirement. shat. i have to go for extra-training. tmd.

and then comes the hike recce. actl all was quite well. mrt bus all e way. until we reached a certain area. NO path, HUGE trucks rumbling at 70km/h, overgrown grass covering potholes, nothing but the BBC satellites in view... wth. longkuan and i looked like either a) some illegal immigrants or b) lonely planet travellers. we made MAJOR changes to HALF the hike. i think its slightly longer than b4, but wth. have fun.

aching aching! haha! go do my phy and econs liao bye!

2007-01-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

btw, anyone wants to buy this bag? my fren's willing to sell at $55. brand-new. unused. cost price is $59. interested buyers tell me!

2007-01-28T19:10:00.000+08:00

i got rejected from street dance. cos i need to go for 3rd lang. now i'm feeling very precarious... all i've got is BB... and like i've mentioned 2 posts ago... or is it the previous? or 3? wtv, that my involvement in BB is being restricted... it makes me feel all the more scared... i think i'm gonna join RECAS. i mean... i dunno...

on the other hand, i ran 12km today. =) followed by sets. after like carbo and protein loading for 2 days. (not that i wanted. i juz cant resist the aroma of food... =S) WHEE i felt so good!

and i met ms aquamarine again. last time due to my shin pain i couldnt run fast. today i could. whee! well, my shin pain did come, so i actl took 2km warm up... and 1.5km slow jog... but who cares... =D

sigh... RJC life isnt realli going as i expected it to be... =(

2007-01-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

crap la, sry i wanna angst a lil now so i wun bother to type in french. esp since its like 12.31am now and blogging in french would make me more frustrated...

the last thing u wanna do when u come home at 8+pm on a long tiring crappy day and get suaned at by ur parents. they freaking dont support me, dont trust me and all!

when i use the comp they think i'm wat, listening to mr brown, SURFING PORN LIKE WTH, and using msn means i'm talking cock? wth man!

and then wat, I WAS ON THE FONE DOING AQ STUFF WITH LONGKUAN FOR 2.5hours and they think i'm chatting with a GIRL FOR FUN?! "why u always say u no time to do hw?"

I'M IN RI, I'M IN RJC, I'VE OBTAINED LIKE UPTEEN SCHOLARSHIPS TO FILL A BANK AND RESUME AND TESTIMONIAL.

GIMME A LIFE!!!! do i have to spend 100% of my time studying?! AM I NOT ALREADY PUTTING IN MY 2000% EFFORT AS ALL MY FRENS CAN WITNESS?! DO I HAVE TO STLIL COME HOME AND GET THIS SORT OF TREATMENT?! dammit man dammit!!!

and then i go to school. CCA. my official CCA is BB. yet i'm being subtly forced to retreat and wat not cos if nt all my batchmates all wun come to contribute to BB?

in the first place they all are.

secondly no one minds me doing it cos i'm free and its my responsibiltiy cos its my cca

thirdly i wanna give back and impact the guys and my frens as much as i've been impacted.

now which part of this says "u shd do less" and that "u want recognition?"

i'm not at breaking point. YET. wth its week 4 onli. i have how many more days, weeks, months, maybe 2 yrs...

='(

Je devrai écrire en Français

2007-01-23T21:57:00.001+08:00

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Bonjour tout le monde. Je trouve qu'il soit mieux que j'écris en Français en espérant que j'améliore mon Français. à tout mes amis, je peux seulement dire "pardon" si vous ne comprenez pas ce qui je dis. J'utiliserai parfois l'anglais et parfois le français. Si je veux reussir, je dois travailler très dur!

Aujourd'hui, c'était un jour mal. Premierement, je n'ai pas su comment faire les questions de mathematique. Je suis passé 30minutes sur UN question. Et il n y avait personne pour consulter parce que j'étais seul. Quelle chance... J'étais très frustré. Plus, la sentir de fatigue a déjà surmonté moi. La resultat était catastrophique. J'ai commencé de sentir triste, colère contre moi-même, inutile et inquieté de mes études...

Depuis que j'ai éntré dans RJC, et c'est juste le QUARTIEME semaine, j'ai étdudié beaucoup et très dur relativement à l'année dernière. Mais je trouve que quand je travaille plus, je semble de comprendre moins, et je sens plus stupide. C'est irritant, ça! =(

Zoe m'a appellé pour demander de lui aider acheter un gaufle. J'ai attendu pour 10minutes dehors mon salle de classe car son prof les a libéré très tard pour leurs repos. Quand j'ai éntré la salle, la premiere chose que j'ai vu était mon note pour la test diagnostique. Et j'ai été choqué. 10.5 SUR 50?! QUOI?! j'ai été presque pleine des larmes... La colère couvait dans moi... alors que je sourais, je crié dans ma coeur...

Un autre mardi/jeudi. Un autre jour dansquel je sorti le MOELC, vois la ciel bleu-foncé, et penser. pense de mon vie, pense de les étudies, pense à tout que les autres étudiants font quand j'étudie... sigh...

2007-01-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

haha okok i shall blog abt my sch life so far.

i must say i'm pretty sad.

my class guys are 90% scouts, and the class mostly takes PME History, while i'm the ONLY guy to take french. so most of e time i'm like... alone. tho we do talk and all but i dun realli feel like i belong. some of them quite cold too... well not cold, but nt as warm as i hope they'd be...

i spend my free periods alone mugging or stoning while they take history. my meals are taken alone. when they go home together i tread alone to 3rd lang. then in 3rd lang centre the RJC ppl are together in one class (in rjc) while the rest seem to know each other. alone AGAIN. luckily still got su jun and on first sight they're quite friendly. phew....

no one can tell how HAPPY i was when longkuan said he saw me and came over to join me for muggin in e afternn... i nearly broke into tears...

truthfully, i dun feel as tho i've been so hardworking/mugger these past 4 yrs. my engine's already revved up and i'm like mugging everyday. now's only 3rd week? and it feels so stress le =S

lectures tutorials quite cool la, tho i dun like the idea of lectures tt much cos when lecturers make mistake or when u in doubt, difficult to ask la... sian... but can do a lot of stuff in lectures, like sms and all HAHA

econs is my fav sub as of yet, cos its so interactive and the teachers rox! math and phy still not bad la hor not bad xD ohwell...

i shall see how things go...

2007-01-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant... (my arse)
What, was I too early? (yes definately)
Oh, sorry. Should I...Do you wanna start over? (i've been thru this 10^10^10^10 times over)
Or, keep going? (go where? i aint even seen the startin line)
Okay, now? (now wat?)
Now? (stfu)

My life is brilliant (=.=)
Your life's a joke (nope its not. unless ur life's a mirror of mine)
You're just pathetic (read above)
You're always broke (realli?)
Your homemade Star Trek uniform really ain't impressin' me (my uniform's white. and blue)
You're sufferin' from delusions of Adequicy (nah, i'm feelin pathet)

You're Pitiful (X3) (ARGH)
It's true (JE SAIS!)
Never had a date ( yea i know... dun rub it in)
That ya couldn't inflate (whee)
And ya smell repulsive too (nah)
What a bummer bein' you (i know...)
Guess you'll never grow a clue (i do)
When it just sucks to be you (totally.)

2007-01-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

lectures are damn funny (note i din say interesting). juz plain funny. and i'm kinda like making quite some frens. thing is they're not fr my class. wth =.=

shit man graphic calculator $174. free alarm clock. they know us man. need the clock to make us stay awake rite? calculators are getting bigger and bigger. damn smart.

i realised that blogs are no longer a good way of expressing myself. cos there're so many things i wanna let out on, but juz cant. its private yet public. sigh...

2007-01-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

okok here comes my LONG-AWAITED post!!! oh ya, HAPPY NEW YEAR! oopz a bit late =S

ahhh orientation has been really fun! went to orientation with a bit of idea of how it was gonna be like, but the final feeling was realli different!

our OG was very very stone at the start... Royce and I kinda like, juz got hyped up ourselves? i came up with a cheer and Royce helpedwith hand actions and a Jap word!

L'ATITUDE, L'ATITUDE!
SEE WE ALL VERY CUTE!
KAWAII! =D (with a finger to the face)

apparantly a lot of Nanyang Pri sch ppl in my OG... so i was in a sense a bit left out sometimes... till now i cant click well with some of them.

RJC is very fun! a lot of fresh ideas for games la. Like dog and bone but u gotta blow e tt ball toward ur grp. we looked like dogs la, but very fun!

House spirit was very good! (i heard it onli happens during orientation... shrugs?)

the theme of the orientation was cluedo, quite cool la! tt nite we had OG dinner, royce and i acted as "tour guides" for bishan. and after OG dinner play truth or dare... wah sei everyone truth dio qtns on love life, so i decided to use "dare". den dio kena need to go ask a girl for name and fone number... =S my frens took foto, but nopez i'm not gonna post it LOL

2nd day ah... er... more games? the start was very stone la, i was like "eh wat happened" but later became better! tt nite we sat at e bubble tea shop area discussing O Nite stuff. our plan was damn funny and stupid la. i was supposed to be a geisha with "sexy, hairy legs" xD and kinda stuff! ohwell

3rd day. even more games? i cant remember.... played SO MANY games! oh ya, got to know my class... din like it at first. like very stone and all... eekz =S then we played Jackie Wu's shi zi lu kou! and wat the heck dio Ghim Moh area! wah i was seriously damn stressed la, everyone expecting me to lead the group to victory. or at least tt's wat i tot. then lorraine royce they all keep asking me chill out... haha... they decided to take 165 so we got off at holland v and when we reached ghim moh e other HH grp still at Raffles City. haha! the tasks damn fun la, wat cheer the cheer backwards, then form food fr water to super rings. rojak was our first food.

den we were like, kuay lapis? then kuay lapis $3.50, i was like "eh wat abt teh ais? or kaya toas?" xD

then go Holland V, sing the alphabet song using "potato" nia. now we're addicted to e song! then wah lau drink super rings in newater. YUX. wah lau...

last station was a bit hard. more challening. we wanted like "kinder bueno egg shell" or sth outta desperation haha! then eat lettuce with some DISGUSTING PASTE. made of wasabi, ginger and herbs, pea paste and wat the heck.... it was more like fear factor la! carol (my OGL) was laughing at us until she was told she herself had to eat. HAHA. jokes. =S

then we took a foto at this mega palm thing. i suggested like everyone sit and cover all e fingers except the middle =D

tt nite i was too tired liao... din join them for dinner. but still onli made it home at 9+. damn funny!

monday, last day. war games was quite xiong, but innovative ideas! team work rox! hui ru, my dance partner, and og mate, very nice to work with. we totally PWNZ when it comes to 3-legged race la. =D

then O nite... wah lau the costume, i looked damn... out. like trash bag, half naked, ropes and all... sigh... i was feeling quite down. thnx sheila! accompany me over sms. i'm stilll not used to "new ideas" kinda thing. or out of e box. or wtv.

anyway, in e end costume like a small aprt onli. O nite stuff was damn funny la... and the prospect of going to study le made us bond even closer and dread sch... =S

today was lke first day of sch? math lecture was... damn boring at first but slowly became funny! ohwell got tutorial and lecture notes le, shall do work later.

crashed history lesson. the teahcer was quite funky leh, made me think twice abt french over history... but i think i'll take french. =)

had break, go study with pris and her fren, er... wei xian issit? and linky came along. and studying math has nvr been so fun! i like haha!

and i made the discovery of the century. i shd hv been awarded the nobel prize for math and peace, had zoe not told me someone discovered it b4 me...

i am smaller than 3 yous. (put it in a linear equation)

i <3 u

tt's how great love is. and tt's how practical mathematicians are...

anyway had econs. Mr Simon Quek looked damn stressed la. "hey can u dun talk please, i cant concentrate" and all... but econs became light-hearted too! the econs teachers mostly look damn funky... i like... xD

and yea tt's all from me now!

have fun! =)

2006-12-30T19:49:00.000+08:00

slept at 2, woke up at 6+. had fried bee hoon, fried chicken wing, vege and kopi iced for breakfast. not a very good start to the hike.

not to mention we started off onli at 8.45 and once we got out we went e wrong way.

and then i got stomachache. had to like bear with the excruciating pain from mrt depot all e way to clementi mrt.

and then run liike 4km to catch up.

juz to have no stamina to catch up again.

find out that QBC is suddenly at harboufront and CHIJ St Theresa's is in the sea.

give new MGR for QBC and change CHIJ to Tiong Bahru MRT.

juz over-react to the use of Epic. (sry ben)

at least the hike ended well... no injuries and all...

my whole body aching...

and lunch at macs at 2pm (wth)

den go to meet 6A for like 5min.

then go church!

reflection of the year was true and great! Song of Songs chapter 3 verse 1. God juz opened my Bible to tt page. true....

acceptance. backsliding. power. recognition. emotional roller coaster. =S

right.

the choir game was damn funny. =D

cant make it for watchnight. any part. sigh =(

2006-12-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

slept at 3am. as usual. =S i realli need to start sleeping at 10pm? like RJC is next wed... 7.40am? crap.

woke up earli, got to harbourfront earli too.... the toilet was... ARGH. dun say. but yea i was feeling quite tired so immediately switch to "crazy" mode le. started talking all sorts of crap lol! harboufront brings back memories. ate breakfast there. good food!

err... i feel like sleeping... 3am... TBC tml. =S

2006-12-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

one whole day and i've only written half a french essay... EFFICIENT. ='(

2006-12-25T13:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday's performance... dun talk abt it. i reallli loved the rehearsals. =) they were prob one of e best things tt happened. the actl performance... crap la.

after the performance, we went to esplanade. went to gluton's square to makan char kuay tiao and all after a bit of singing. den i think ben khoo went high on coke lime. started playing longkuan's guitar and singing feliz navidad and wishing everyone merry christmas. and so we walked from esplanade to fullerton. at first max darius longuan and i were like "ARGH"... but soon one by one we all joined in the fun, juz singing and carolling away like nobody's business. some of the ppl out there were very fun too! juz joining in or having fun with us.

from fullerton we walked to raffles place interchange. the air was cool, making us feel absolutely carefree! then the nite still seemed so young. we decided to walk to tanjong pagar. by tt time ben khoo was at an all time high, juz singing anything to any chord he played... lmao man!

and so we ended of at tanjong pagar. with the most memorable and meaningful and fun christmas eve i've ever had. period. and thus adds another reason to why BB 60th will forever remain in a high position in my life. and thus my blog name. but of cos specially, i love our band guys! all hail Boys Brigade Bagpipe Band 60th coy! =)

2006-12-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

haha today's "jamming" session din turn out as well as it shd hv been... no "feel"... but after tt was fun! dinner, making badges and even going to the toilet LOL! (no dun think sick. seriously.)

That chair beside the ladies' toilet is custom-made for the guys la! when the ladies go into the toilet for ages the guys can sit there, plug in the mp3 and listen to "yi qian nian yi hou"... XD

book drop. you drop the book into my mouth?

LOL la! and making the badge. wth la ben! borrow one book juz to make the badge. then return the book liao! haha! the auntie rox la. we were laughing and joking till it didnt seem like a library =S

and there was this band that totally rocked! street performance. some tribal music. omg the flute nice! i gave them a $1 haha!

fun. =)

2006-12-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

a lot of frosty the snowman i've haerd are all happy jazzy versions.... but since i was young, i've been wondering... isnt this song supposed to be sentimental? and emotional? like the end when frosty is supposed to be gone but he tells e kids to wait for him. that part is so touching and beautiful la! become some jumpy jazz song? i dun agree... =(

2006-12-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

last nite i couldnt sleep. i had a freaking headache, thinking too much. even tho i had a headache liao juz couldnt sleep! thinking, feeling... slept onli at 2am.

woke up at 7+. bad headache... almost couldnt get up. dragged myself out of bed. saw one of my few smses. totally devastated. totally. i went to e mrt station with a "shove off, u owe me 2 million bucks" face...

then on e train. i started getting the headache, the dizziness, the heatiness... i felt like puking, fainting.... it was HORRIBLE. i felt tortorous... and my heart was aching...

reach sch.... i couldnt take it. but i managed all e way to RJC spectators gallery, and slept. for abt 30min.

for some reason, Justin Timberlake's "My Love" made my condition much better. listening to it made me feel much better.

after tt felt pumped up. and much better. did sets and all.

I BROKE MY PULL UP RECORD AGAIN. 15. =)

then go band.

i stomachache la pain... but piped a lot of good tunes.

RGS is a very nice place at nite, not like RI. RGS looks very warm, RI looks like haunted house...

after band piped and sang worship songs and then zoe elissa lk and i went to the piano, play piano, guitar, pipe, etc... WE HAVENT HAD SO MUCH FUN IN AGES!

we juz went high, playing pipe tunes on the piano and guitar and all. we even half seriously wanted to do mtv and cd! i think its possible. longkuan isnt tt optimistic. time will tell.

and we went high la, singing rhythm of my heart in e rain (lk and i)

had dinner at BK again, with more funny stories!

fun la... started off like shit, end off high!

and i got the EAGLES scholarship! extra $150! now got 3 scholarships to my name. LEP hopefully i'll get too....

ahhh... tml bowling, shopping, movie! =)

wed hike... =(

2006-12-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

$200 food voucher brought us to Long Beach once again... the PR Manager remembered me! PR manager indeed :)

And thus, free appetizer, free desserts, discounts... yada yada!

and....

1) salmon sashimi
2) chilli crab
3) canadian geoduck (xiang4 ba2 bang4)
4) canadian oysters (HUGE i tell you. and delicious!)
5) drunken prawns
6) free lor duck as appetizer
7) barbequed fried squid
8) special tofu

havenly bliss =)

and my dad got "horny" again... enjoying our geoduck sashimi, he suddenly told me:

dad: isnt this bliss?
me: yea duh
dad: and it boosts your manliness too... er hem
me: realli?
dad: yea! and the geoduck shape looks like... you know
me: oh ya it does! LOL my wedding order one specially for e VIP table bahz. and one for my wife and i specially.
dad: rock on!

HAHA

and oh ya! mahjong!!! okie it was a lil stone... but stilll hey when do we cousins have gatherings? it was warmth =)

2006-12-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

when they say dun worri juz be frens first. yea we all know that. but we all know that deep inside the feeling OUTRIGHT SUCKS!

when they say yea u gotta learn how to console ur frens and all. dammit the answers are always the same. we cant change the feeling within us. all we need is a LISTENING EAR. please.

sometimes we gotta learn how to say "no".

sometimes we gotta learn how to say "yes".

all for the sake of PROTECTING SELF INTERESTS instead of always being nice.

and sometimes, blood is juz so much thicker than water. thanks AMANDUS and AMADEUS for all the fun times we've had, all the jokes we've cracked and all the games we've bowled juz to make ourselves feel better thru rotten days.

oh btw, i bowled my best game ever today.

mine's the 138 one. haha i know its not very good but hey its my best and i'm proud of it!

dont ask me why its Z and nt YQ. Amandus chose the auspicious name. and indeed it was auspicious. =)

we bowled 10 GAMES. not frames. haha!

f*** la... =(

2006-12-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

haha sry havent been blogging much. been very very tired... realli havent rested much this hols. AQ band AQ band AQ band. the occasional going-outs like happy feet, pool, out with amandus and all a lot to eat seafood, play, stone... xD

ok on hong kong ah...

hmmm...

i realli love their transport system! their bus like got turbo one! the driver press pedal we chiong like amd! and very comfortable! and clean and presentable... i like... their mtrs are oso very nice! tell u which is next stop, which direction u heading, where the door will open... nice la... onli SMRT buses are comparable here... SBS trying to catch up here haha...

Food was quite good! but mundane cos we din realli know hwere to go to eat. their wanton is like... 3prawns per wanton, 4 wantons! but no char siew la. and roast goose! and porridge!

honestly i din realli know how to communicate. the first nite i was like... sheesh... but later juz talk in chinese or english automatically can liao haha! and i learnt quite a few cantonese words =) like how to say "simon" in Cantonese! ;)

the weather there isnt realli tt cold, other than e mornings. i like the temperature. wun sweat de. but ppl smoke everywhere... its kinda disgusting... cant take it :S

shop shop shop for 7days, 10hrs a day. omg la torture! but real shopping onli a few times... the rest juz stone around and walk in malls 3 times the size of marina square. vivo city is PEANUTS there.

u can find gucci in the middle of nowhere. and no i'm not talking fakes. tt u can find everywhere.

and the nite scenery of hong kong from tsim sha chui (issit?) where the avenue of stars is is beautiful!!! ahhh much better than singapore's la.... =S

whee yupp! tt's a summary. for more talk face to face easier!

may post some fotos later! if nt juz msn me ask for em. =D

oh ya, i've developed a taste for singing songs... esp songs that are quite emo and high... tho i cant sing well... but i like!!!!

2006-12-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

dammit man i'm juz here stoning in front of e comp and the usual crap comes when i'm feeling totally shagged out.

i'm thinking too much, worrying too much, wanting to do sth abt it but my body juz says "NO".

AQ camp, Bagpipe, studies and all are kinda tiring me out.

ms tang is right, i shd give up some stuff.

darn it wat the hell have i done to myself :S

study physics?
study french?

get my As for As?

look good?

try to be more sociable?

shd i even care?

why shd i?

screw.

2006-12-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

haha sry i shd blog abt hongkong and photo blog but i'm so tired.... come back fr HK with lil sleep go AQ camp. then at nite cant sleep cos my toopid cousins make me laugh and laugh until 2am. omg la xD

lonely! i'm mr lonely! i have nobody! i'm on my own! haha!

2006-11-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE! Cya 3rd! =D

2006-11-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

i juz found out that Royal Plaza Hotel (didnt sound very nice) is a FIVE STAR HOTEL, with a HUGE state-of-the-art gym and a 40m long ROMAN STYLE swimming pool with auto-heater and UNDERWATER MUSIC! and there's a jacuzzi and steam bath and YADA YADA I'M NOT LEAVING THE HOTEL! xD

the plane we're taking there and back are BOTH Boeing 777s! with my experience going to Melbourne, 777 is very new, very stable and very comfortable. boi oh boi!

i'm changing $100 to HK money to buy gifts back. hopefully i DO buy gifts back, if i'm not too engaged in eating and shopping for shoes and clothes. =D

27th nov to 3rd dec. signing off!

and i've got a companion for happy feet yay!

who's up for open season, deja vu and casino royale?

btw, STEP UP ROX! their music, their dancing... omg damn cool. i wanna dance! but i dunno how to. muz dance dance dance! whee... makes me regret missin playground@clubmomo...

2006-11-23T14:49:00.000+08:00

i won 4 grands prix: USA (Indianapolis), European (Nurburgring), French (Magny-Cours) and British (Silverstone) in a row. Whee! All i won from pole except French (i still trying to find the perfect racing line so my timing juz managed a fourth, but still overtook within e first lap). made a mistake on the penultimate lap of the European GP. luckily i had a 10sec lead! (i onli played 6laps each, so 10sec lead within 6 laps says a lot! xD) Whee... now for chantering and then 1 hour devotion. and then study French again.

Anyone up for Happy Feet the movie?

2006-11-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

i wanna go christmas concert at esplanade (jazz concert) $20. i wanna go out watch movie. i wanna have fun. wanna go pool. wanna everything. but no one to go with. wow.

hols havent realli been going e way i want i guess? sian man... =(

frig.

maybe i shdnt listen to class 95fm. =S

2006-11-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

This is wat i saw this morning at the MRT on my way to school, after waking up groggily at braddell mrt. absolutely DISGUSTING sight. that lady there obviously thinks her $1 makes her the queen of the mrt.

before alighting, i politely went up to tell her to please don't hog the seats, there're others standing around and all who may want a seat.

her reply," IF THEY WANT A SEAT THEY CAN COME AND TELL ME, I'LL GIVE IT TO THEM!" and gave me a rich tai-tai snort and the look as tho i'm a busybody with nth better to do. As if anyone will DARE to come near you, auntie. Initiative? Zero. Responsibility? Zero. Civic-mindedness? Zero. Selfishness? 100. Ego? 100 also.

Li Ao criticized Singaporeans as stupid last year. We were all pissed off. The forums bloomed with anger and everyone was on "red alert". Admittedly so was I. My uncle told me on Sunday over lunch "actualli u see the reaction of Singaporeans u know that Li Ao spoke the truth. We can't accept criticisms, we are so selfish. He's reminding us of where we stand!"

i was thinkin thru all these and kinda contemplating. This morning's incident confirmed it. And the reason why i keep paragraphing is to make it easier for u all to read so tt u all will read and think abt this.

We are a first-world country materially. We've got the highest class tpt, the highest class (disputable) education and we're at the top for nearly everything: Bio industry, Shopping, Food, even night-life. Yet where is the quality of us Singaporeans? Readers' Digest ranked us one of the worst quality citizens in the world a few years back if i dun remember wrongly. Li Ao criticised us. Isn't it time to do sth abt it? The government cant be the ones holding up Singapore alone. They cant go around doing diplomacy and tourism if all that others see when they come to Singapore is this kinda behavior and quality out of us.

Singapore has provided so much for us, our ancestors slogged so hard for us to enjoy. However, this is i believe far from what they have hoped for, to see us behaving so selfishly. Please guys, let's be more civic-minded and build a more gracious society...

2006-11-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

looking at u
i remember that fone call
that sms
that sacrifice you made.
against all odds
u did it
all for love

i was a foolish boy
never thought thru my brain
i had it all
and never appreciated it.
against all odds
i broke your heart
all for "love".

now i see u again
that smile
that encouragement
that special feeeling.
against all odds
i wanna say sorry
and a big thank you
to you, to the special you.

you're beautiful in that special way

2006-11-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

AQ training... nt very xiong. juz a bit mentally exhausting cos its quite... slow i guess? haha. but yupp its not that challengin for me cos i've done enuff training to render conditioning easy. =p

i spent 3hrs packing my ROOMS. got 2 trashbags full of paper to recycle, 4 bags of notes and tbs to give away (1 to amandus, 1 to max, 1 to michelle, 1 to NTUC's tb carn) and 2 neat rooms. I'M PROUD OF MYSELF OH MAN <3

AND THEN I FINISHED THE AQ PROPOSAL FOR BOTH THE CAMP AND THE TESTS. OMG i feel VERY accomplished today!!! woot woot woot! =)

i'm a happy guy today!

and did i tell u elton john's my idol? HAHA! jkjk

2006-11-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

3bowls of rice. 2 bowls of a lot of prawns, salmon, squid, mushrooms, pork. thus ends my stay at amandus's hse with a large steamboat. my whole body's aching, did exercises everyday. tml there's AQ training. GG. shd be able to survive. i THINK. c'mon c'mon i can do it =)

shan't upload my photos now. i think i gonna sleep soon. damn tired. and AQ tml. gonna pack up my room tml. woot. haha! then i gonna mug french gogogo!

2006-11-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo! i feel good. cos i tanned and exercised and all with my couzzies haha! feels real good to sweat it out, look good and all =D anyway, went to the motorshow today. quite disappointing really. tho there was e ferraris and the lambos, and the weird rolls royce imitation jap cars, there werent realli much to see! no bmw no merc no audi no aston no porsche. ferrari onli the 599GTB fiorano (looks GOOD! dun believe e mag's pictures), F430 (no spyder tho), e lambos looked good too, tho the stupid red star in the middle of the LP640 made the car look like it juz went thru a war from the soviet union. better off as a tank i say. colour was good tho. and race queen wise... onli 1 lexus one was chio.nokia and some surveyors rocked tho ;) shall upload the fotos when i get home tml or sth!

yesterday... damn embarrassing/funny sia. one marist, one rafflesian and one millenium (millennia de)/ NS pre-enistee AKA recruit in their respective school PE walking around in Orchard road at nite sia. smart bo! hehe! popiah $2. no lup cheong no prawn. wah siao eh!

kimchi girl. 2cm. bus stop. far east has by far the FUNNIEST shop names ever. we couldnt stop laughin. good ab training. =)

2006-11-12T12:19:00.000+08:00

to everyone out there to make this world a better place:

1) if u wanna criticize someone, please make sure you're actl doing sth by setting an example. As Jesus once said: "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, "Let me take the speck out of your eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye" (Matthew 7:3-5)

people don't appreciate others who juz know how to talk bad about others but they themselves are just as bad/even worse. please be a role model.

2) NEVER call people stupid/imbecile or laugh at others for what they have done. if u want, offer some friendly advice, but NEVER insult one's IQ. Personally i'm guilty of it sometimes but to be on the receiving end is really painful. Therefore I urge everyone to please STOP all this nonsense.

You may laugh it off, juz because someone is a good fren u tink its alright to make this kinda funny jokes at them or juz because the person's ur junior/son/daughter/wtv u think its ok. you're WRONG TO THE LIMITS. the person will feel extremely hurt, and i'm not kidding. by doing so u're condemning all his/her years of education, of learning, of everything. if u're the parent and u scold ur children like that, worse. u're scolding ur whole family for not having done anything to educate ur children. Everyone has dignity. Don't cross the line.

"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." (Matthew 7:1-2)

i seemed to be destined to 做牛作马 cos i'm born in the year of the horse -_-"

3) please appreciate one's efforts. 所谓：“没有功劳，也有苦劳” (tt kinda applies to BB in some sense). even if u dun realli agree on some terms, please appreciate efforts for helping you or ur organization in one way or another. ur conscience bites, and you very well know it. worst still if tt person 有功劳也有苦劳。you jolly well know when to draw e line.

Haha it sounds like ranting, but dear readers (whoever reads my blog) please heed the advice. You'll juz have taken a further step in making this world, which is filled with cynicism, sarcasm, egoism, selfishness and anger, a much better place to live in. Thank you.

2006-11-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

AQ. After a year of sabbatical, i'm back. we all are. thanx to me consistent training i wasnt that physically exhausted, but the intense heat (i jog during evenings remember) and the unexpected stuff (like a 4 round cool down) did drain my overall energy level. it was more of mental exhaustion... and the fear tt i cant perform haunted me like mad. like everyone'd do better den me and i'm expected to be leading in tt sense. ohwell... but it was GOOD! training with the old guys, and the newbies (sec2s oso in tt sense cos i nvr train with u guys b4) was realli fun!

lejon's hse was fun too! ahah the super mario thingy! at first like quite childish, but after tt it gets exciting la! then swim a bit, den pool. lejon and caleb taught me how to pool. and after getting the strokes and stuff better, its fun!!! sheesh i'm getting addicted. xD

i shd start french soon. i havent realli done anything. juz exercised, played, wrote a chinese story and yea... gee... and i still think i'm lacking sleep. see la this kind of environment sigh =S

2006-11-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

how to win subaru impreza challenge:
1) be damn sleepy
2) get someone go on stage sing "PUT UR HANDS UP IN THE AIR, PUT UR HANDS UP IN THE AIR!"

or:
sing: put ur left hand in, put ur left hand out, put ur left hand in and u shake it all abt (repeated by right hand)

u confirm win. =D

~~~~~

tips on buying sneakers/ shoes:

1) drag a person of the opp sex along.
2) MAKE SURE YOU GET THE CORRECT SIZE. as in check whether they gave u the correct size.
3) be proud of wat u've bought and dun go around still looking and later start regretting or sth

(dun be mistaken i din commit MOST of the above "mistakes")

~~~

sian? dun feel like doing anything. sian.

2006-11-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday's sermon was very very enlightening... abt pride vs love. pride is abt doing sth in e hope of gaining 4 urself. love is abt doig e same thing, but in e hope of helping others. and there was the thing abt perception on doing sth that may be right. "nothing in this world is wrong. its jus how its done, how u view it" if God says its wrong, dont argue. u'll always be able to argue and convince urself to do otherwise, onli to harm urself. there's no gray area. everything's black and white. don't think anymore. love others. love urself. it was enlightening. very enlightening.

anyway today bought new monitor and new speakers! the monitor is VERY wide! goodness good for playing games, but good for giving headaches too i think xD the speakers can change colour somemore. its blue now, but i got the pink casing xD then ther was this girl (older den me) who had a very short skirt and wore very low. den she bent over in delifrance. my dad commented "i think her panties bigger den her skirt" HAHA.
then later he wanna order garlic bread, den he wanted it toasted or sth then he combined into one word "garlic black" omg la xD

suddenly i feel so alone, so weird, so stressed for nth. is it cos there's nth to do? or is it cos i'm supposed to study french and phy over e hols? clear up my rm? why liddat? i dun wanna be so driven...

and suddenly the other tots juz pop in. who else? SHE la... ohwell ohwell... or the whoever she its gonna be... i shdnt be thinking of it at all. why am i still trapped? sigh...

2006-11-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

compare the sydney opera house and the foto of the hair. sorry i juz realli realli tot my fren's hair looks like the sydney opera house. HAHA! =)

gt a haircut today! like i said, stomp.com.sg recommended chapter 2 at marina square. i went to try out. goodness that guy is damn pro! use a lot of techniques i've nvr seen b4, snip here snip there a bit here a bit there. woah i like my new hairstyle. he teach me to use clay to style, but wah so many steps until i listen liao gong gong... shall experiment on my own... without the clay its still not abd, but not AS nice as with the styling! his name is Jay Ang, after giving me his namecard. rox sia! =)

2006-11-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

my gpa is 3.6 average. unless moderation which will bring it up to 3.7+... i'm consistent... and my average mark improved to 75.6. ohwell... still could do better... put in so much for BB.... onli to... sigh... i nvr tot it'd happen again. i tot it ended. seems like i was wrong...

gentlemen start your engines.

prepare for battle.

roger that. you betta have roger that.

8km not enuff. i guess i'll start jogging to south buona vista, turn to pasir panjang, to SAJC/RV, turn to queensway mrt all e way home. shd i? =0

tired. tired. i'm supposed to be slack now! *(&$(@&&%#

2006-10-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

wheee today jogged from ghim moh jogging track to clementi, den jog to new town sec, thru dover road to farfield sec then to buona vista mrt back home! at this time the air very cool, nobody, plug in Runrig (a scottish band with nice pumpy but relaxed tunes) and jog! very shiok leh! feels real great now! i'm damn pissed. math gpa 4 miss by ONE mark, chinese miss 3.2 by 1.5mk and chem by 2mk for gpa 4... ARGHHHHHHH =((((( onli 1 GPA 4 confirmed, tt's SS. hope my math got some miscalculation can get marks la.... haish.. muz biah chinese....

drill project looks good, hope it turns out well so next yr our company's admin and annual parade wun be so bad! if it works out well we'll have our coy drill back in standard =)

O levels are comin. to all my frens out there... JIAYOU!!!! c'mon c'mon push push push!!!! whee! ^^

2006-10-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

today was an eventful day in its very own right. haha! morning went to orchard again with my family, had my usual teh-peng and eggs and toast. and then yea, i bought the F1 car liao! i mean the model. nopez not Michael. Kimi Raikkonen. my dad din want me to buy Michael cos i "already have one" tho its F2000, and nt 248 F1... but nvm! MP4-21! looks chio! =)

rained. so i napped. woke up. got sun! go swimming pool. no sun. sigh. nvm i swam intensive today. onli my lats ached. but yea overall body workout! then came home, and cos my dad was bz doing house work, i volunteered to wash e car ALONE for e FIRST TIME! whee! i find washing cars very fun. i tihnk its cos of all e experience with polishing my uniform in BB. i always wanna make sure the car bodywork is clean and shiny, the alloys are gleaming and the interior's clean! i tihnk i wanna get my dad to buy some leather polish, the interior's a lil musky cos its the last thing we wash so we're kinda lil stinky liao then clean interior. i think next time clean interior first bahz. and leather polish! i want e car to smell good too!

and then did some sets.

and then read chinese newspaper. it does help a bit.

so now i'm gonna write my essay. then nap. wake up. watch F1 at 1am. then sleep at 3am. am i smart or am i smart. =)

i juz recevied an email fr ms tang. ms catherine chia sent an email on Primers Challenge (sth that takes over AQ for Primers). 18-21st dec. i'm gonna sign up if they allow (cos i think i'm still sec4? or primer?) since its a compulsary course and in tt sense there's "nth much" to do this hols. so might as well. later next yr cannot go den die rite? haha!

k signing off!

2006-10-21T18:32:00.000+08:00

haha finally posting. CTs were quite ok i guess? except english where somehow i din hv inspiration and history, where maybe no mood to write cos it was e last paper. then after that PLAY HARD!!!! went gymming, steamboat, tanning at amandus' place, after a real nice and enlightening talk with pastor eric! he's seriously very young at heart man. hip oso! nice fashion sense i think xD and wat he said realli re-affirms everything and puts light to many queries i hv. then yea tanned with amandus and amadeus. finally had some sun. then swam a bit den worked out, b4 a seriously xiong steamboat meal! 3bowls of rice (as per normal) and LOADS of salmon, LOADS of prawns (my fav) and loads of other stuff! we were talking abt clubbing. amadeus says "go there JUST for the experience and NOTHING more". agreed. but i dun wanna go places with too much pulsating R and B music, i prefer grooving or techno, not too.... noisy. xD and we were talking racing too! maybe next yr we going sepang! FINALLY an F1 race!!! i wanna watch!! and maybe go go-karting in dec, if amadeus saves up enuff money (if he does, i'll explain why later)

thurs KUSHINBO! amadeus and amandus tagged along too. salmon, teppanyaki, tempura, wasabi... piled plate after plate, emptied in e toilet, came back, piled more. wah sei! yumm!!! live for food man xD then after tt we decided to go for a long walk. amadeus saw the Ferrari FXX, and even tho he was nearly broke, he din care much cos its limited edition and its a beautiful car and he bought it . explained. xD then we went lanning at raiders. damn funny. we wanna go back play more! i oso saw Chapter 2. according to the stormers (www.storm.com.sg) its a good place for a haircut. shall try tt someday! 6kg dumbbells for $27. on my list.

then bowling. we decided 1 game onli. oh ya, i was wearing my long sleeved ripcurl and all, very punk-like. i oso wore the dog-tag hil gave me last yr. brilliant! i juz need a new pair of BLACK shoes. white doesnt go well with a lot of my outfits... ><><

Friday... oh ya went gymming with amadeus. then PGR. nurburgring circuit damn fun! its not the F1 nurburgring. MUCH longer. siao la always lose amadeus by 3-5sec cos my cars slide here there everywhere. makes me wish i had the 248 at my disposal (ferrari's F1 car this yr) then a sumptuous dinner and delicious cake fr bakerzin for my sis' bdae!

today... i did sth damn funny. i was at zy's hse, and saw the beautiful sunlight. couldnt resist it. i asked for permission, and "studied" (i couldnt realli concentrate with e intense sunlight) and tanned half-naked beside my car in his mini-courtyard! damn funny! many ppl looked and stared, but i din care much. i dun look at u u dun care me. i finally get the meaning of "having fun and dont care others". xD apparantly the darned haze's gonna last till end nov (WTH!) so wateva sun appears, grab it.

gonna do a lot of shopping i guess. need black shoes, dumbbells, Michael's 248 model car (his final year! mus buy! next yr buy kimi raikonnen in his Ferrari), more clothes? shrugs. hong kong's gonna help me a lot i guess HAHA.

i like playing "can u feel e love tonite" on e piano. made many new variations into something i realli like! trying to figure out "we are the world". its kinda confusing cos i always have to make modifications, and not getting the feel and all's quite frustrating... ><

chinese Os coming. betta write a few compos. i dun feel like leh. stupid la my C5 and all making me hate chinese again, not conversational chinese but ya. i came into RI with distinction for HMT and A* for chinese. leaving RI with a C5 for prelims. nice thing RI did to my chinese. >=(

2006-10-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

after finishing reading Every Young Man's Battle, i cant help but switch on e comp and write this entry to declare that GOD LOVES ME! this book's realli headed me into a new direction in life, with new perspectives. the way i view the opp sex now is in a much more friendly and "human-like" way and not as in a sense "sexual objects" where i go "wah very chio!" or "wah hot leh!" kinda thing. i know this entry's prob gonna turn some heads and go like "wow i din expect YQ to be like this" or sth but i wanna realli declare God's love for me cos this book and my action plan according to e book realli has deepened my understanding and relationship with God AND also allowed me to in e future have a better understanding and better pure relatioships with girls! It helped me define wat sexual purity is, how to uphold it, and how to respect girls, myself and God! there was oso this chapter about how the fathers feel. Realli explains a lot on things like "why must we get the parents approval before marrying" and "how does even simply staring and oggling at girls change e way we look at em and the way we respect ourselves as humans?"

furthermore, I'd like to invite u guys out there to get a copy to read. even if it doesnt apply directly or too much to u, there'll definately be powerful revelations. i realli gonna try my best to stop swearing, to stop looking and staring at girls for their mini skirt or drop-dead hot outfit or wateva but to see them as, in a sense, humans, not objects. (dont get me wrong i dun look at girls as objects, juz the few strangers along the street, which is actl VERY bad). also, i'm gonna stop my double-meaning jokes and all. and the difference this time is... I'M GONNA MAKE SURE I SUCCEED! so pl help me along e way if i do stumble here and there.

Thanks Sheila, Michelle and Violet for this book for my bdae present! I'm gonna try get the version for females to try get an even better understanding of how to carry on relationships (not talking abt bgrs) with females and to understand what they think. gonna try get Pastor Eric too to have a discussion on this book and some qtns i have to help me along.

PRAISE THE LORD!

2006-10-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

i think SS confirm 4 le. this test was quite easy i think, and i wrote a hell lot using e same format i did for CT1, which got me 23/25. hopefully la. i need 65% onli. now chiong math and chem! and then bio. phy i juz get 70% i happy liao (i aiming 3.6 nia)

i was reading Every Man's Battle and somehow it seemed like i entered a dream in the library. God realli seemed to be communicating with me about my reaction toward girls as a whole. a lot of new reflections and all came into me and made me realise a lot. now i'm determined to try my very best to change e way i see girls and stuff. hope it works! :)

was out with hil. and as expected, weird stares from all ri and rgs peeps, as well as wen jun and chai yi (he goig HCJC but came RJC for fun). ohwell, one on one DOESNT mean relationship please. i like going out one on one cos its more personal and u acn talk more heart talk and sincere talk in tt sense. so yea its nicer. please dun tihnk otherwise. (refer to my pt 2 if still in doubt)

mug!

2006-10-12T18:42:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking pissed with my chinese prelim result... i was realli paralyzed in shock when i saw my result... its f***ing pathetic! i was realli trying to find a hole to hide in... no face to meet anyone... sry anyone who asked me abt any result today. i was in no mood, no state of mind to reply... i nearly cried. i very nearly did... i dun think its wise to hv 7 storeys for RI building. in a wrong state of mind, someone very well might... ok nvm. touchwood (pats my table) AAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!

tml starts the final hurdle. c'mon c'mon.

='(

2006-10-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

sigh... i feel quite failure in chinese... i kinda like it, i mean hey i grew up in a chinese speaking environment, use chinese to communicate with my closely-knit family members. then i saw my ca marks today. actl i tot hey at least i got a gpa 3.2. budden i went back i told some ppl who asked me and they were like "huh? so low? i din hand up this tt still higher" kinda thing. dun get me wrong they werent suanning me, juz tt... wah lau i couldnt even write 床前明月光properly, ca 55.8percent, without my special assignments... i dunno la... tmd...

i juz saw some paper of some ~~f***er~~ (mind u i dun use these words normally) /cheekopeh. 44 years old sell satay in Geylang FORCE sex upon 15yr old girl. wtf is this la. hope ur manhood rots in prison! its a total disgrace to us males please. wat is this man! the psychological, phsyical and mental damage at this age will leave a deep deep scar in her life forever la! u think ur manhood very powerful ah! make u a friggin eunuch and u can go rot!

automatic toilets are damn irritating if the infrared is over sensitive. takashimaya, den now RI. wah lau i sat down, moved tt bit to adjust my pos and suddenly the water juz KABOOM and i had a wet bottom la! luckily it was clean water. wah kauz siao la ><

ok. now's the time to chiong. i MUST succeed. i MUST. *determined*

2006-10-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling like michael schumacher now... alot of GPA 4s are STATISTICALLY possible, but in reality quite impossible. like i need 90%s for CTs.. tmd...

go mug

2006-10-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

how how how... my aunt juz told me we can onli go beijing in dec... like 7th-22nd dec... super uber long... and i'll miss out bagpipe performance, possibly have to skip the other performance cos i wun be able to pipe, enjoy singapore christmas shopping and outings with frens... yet i wanna go... argh... how how how... =(

2006-10-09T20:13:00.000+08:00

Our class foto. 4I 2006! :)

2006-10-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

sigh... =(

quote fr Michael Schumacher:

Michael Schumacher, Ferrari (DNF): “We are a great team. Our guys are the best and I have a great affection for everyone at Ferrari and am always more than satisfied in the way we work. Incidents like today’s can happen and they are part of racing. You win together but you also lose together. Today we did our best, I was leading the race and then my engine broke. That’s the simplest way to sum it up. That is Formula One. We can be proud of what we have achieved since Canada: we were twenty five points behind and no one could have thought we would be back in the fight for the championship, but we did it. Now we are nine points behind in the Constructors’ classification and we will do all we can to win this title in Brazil. As for the Drivers,’ it is lost. I don’t want to head off for a race, hoping that my rival has to retire. That is not the way in which I want to win the title.”

RESPECT.

2006-10-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

i have one word for Michael Schumacher: RESPECT. his dramatic retirement from the race due to a darn rare Ferrari engine failure was like "ARGH"... he was like near breakdown crying when he came out of the car la... but when he got to the Ferrari pits he smiled and gave everyone, and i mean everyone, like 20+ ppl, den the Ferrari directors at the pit wall a hug and a pat on the back. this is called team spirit man. when the F1 racer wins, it is not onli e result of his good driving, but e result of every pit crew member, engineer, director and manager's efforts. Ferrari realli has the esprit de corps... which is damn unlike Fernando Alonso. i do pity him for all that's happened, but still he shdnt blame it on his Renault team. who the heck wants him to lose e title THIS YEAR when he's moving to McLaren NEXT YEAR? c'mon his whole team was ecstatic when he won the race! his snide comments were like undermining and unappreciative of his team's efforts for the whole year... no matter wat ppl say of Schumacher, he's still a champion in my heart. i've decided not to buy Kimi's McLaren model car this year. i'm buying Schumacher's Ferrari. salute.

anyway haze suddenly gone today! like MIRACLE? ohwell GOOD anyway! haha!

wah lau i was watching A1 grand prix, the "world cup" of motorsport. like my dad describes, its like drinking beer after having drunk wine. i juz watched e Jap Grand Prix, and these cars look like turtles crawling around e track compared to the F1 cars! this doesnt realli represent motorsport's pinnacle yet... esp with Msia's Alex Yoong, Minardi drop-out from F1 a few years back, leading. well i can't complain, Singapore came in 18th... but ohwell its a good step. I WANNA BE THE RACER!!!! i wanna race man. like bring Singapore some glory or sth. ohwell... of i am to race! in a F1 stimulator.... ><

2006-10-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

床前名月光，stress 到想撞墙，举头望望haze, 低头思姑娘
a random poem written by urs truly. xD

new sch building... not bad i like the spaciousness and the lack of tinted windows. but i'm always late after recess. 6th storey. p6 was 7th storey. ><

haze ah haze. everyone takkaire hor. this is BAD. wth.

lots of stuff to say. all forgotten. no time nor energy to blog.

tchao!

Leader of the Band

2006-10-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

An only child
Alone and wild
A cabinet makers son
His hands were meant
For different work
And his heart was known
To none

--He left his home
And went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me
A gift I know I never
Can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldnt wait
He earned his love
Through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.

CHORUS
The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul
--My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the manIm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

My brothers lives wereDifferent
For they heard another call
One went to chicago
And the other to st. paul
And Im in colorado
When Im not in some hotel
Living out this life Ive chose
And come to know so well.

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go
--I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, papa, I dont think i
Said i love you near enough

--The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul
--My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
Im just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.

beautiful song... remember ur parents no matter what conflicts u may hv with them man. they ensured ur life, where u are today, wat achievements and wat happiness u hv... =)

2006-10-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

bad bad headache now.... sigh.... not enuff sleep? stressed? shrugs.... madness...

yesterday got my ripcurl black long sleeves! looks real cool :) after exams 19th oct going sakura or kushinbo to celebrate my sis' bdae, then going shopping for more stuff! den gonna shop with a fren for new shoes :D

and guess wat, i met my kindergarten fren, timothy. actl i wun have known it was him if he wasnt on e news during PSLE period 4yrs ago. i learnt tt his muscle degeneration had led him to be on a wheelchair... he used to be very active and mischevious... now he has to be spoonfed and cant talk properly... to think sometimes we juz get stressed by some problems tt to him, can NEVER be achieved at all in his life, and he has to worry abt basic problems like how to get around daily life... haish... :(

2more weeks to endure. c'mon. c'mon. PUSH PUSH PUSH!!!

2006-09-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday was i guess a pretty good day! senoko power plant was quite an eye opener. seeing singapore's biggest power generation plant in work is quite cool! and i learnt abt how commercial power is traded like stocks, how power reserves are generated in case of black out and see all the cool power plants live in action! omg...

and den i went to my mum's office (juz a street away) and did some work while waiting for her to knock off. den we went causeway point to do some window shopping and makan! having private time out with ur mum is realli a great thing! we had a lot of fun and nice private chit chat times, delicious sakae sushi dinner (i can confirm now tt contrary to my mum's beliefs, sakae sushi is cheaper. we had 7 red and 7 colour plates, esprit drink and some other food and cost e same as genki when we had less!). den we had gelare ice cream! yumm! and some shopping. my mum says i'll get my shoes and clothes after my tests when i realli need it, den we'll go buy them!

came back and chiong essay. i'm feeeling drained out again... now nearly CTs le still have so many assessment components, cant study fr tests! wth...

i think e education system is getting a lil screwy.... and no its not onli e students feeling this way. my dad says his sch doesnt know wat's going on either, and my sch teachers oso not happy with sch admin and stuff... ohwell..

next week we move into our new sch building. and we get closer to rjc, and the canteen. time to boycott the dining hall!!!! not onli students agree. HAHA! stupid canteen pay so much for sucky food, and stingy some more. the cook said "eh the chicken drumlet so big give 2 onli la, not 3" in front of our faces to the cook. very big ah 7cm drumlets, a "GREAT" improvement to 6cm drumlets. -_-"

2006-09-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

wah i think i blog abt yesterday first, somehow it'll definately make me feel betta.

anyway i went with my family for breakfast again! like finally. feels good you know. we went to borders again and i took 4magazines to read. in e end i onli read 1. guess which is it. (no not FHM maxim or new man, i onli visit the car section) its F1! a lot of stuff in there tt totally keeps me engrossed and feel as tho i'm part of the action!! i wanna be F1 racer... but u muz start at 9 and race in europe! gargh :(

then we went for breakfast at Wisma lvl 4 foodcourt! my dad bought glutinous rice and carrot cake fr Crystal Jade express and brought it up. The quality of the rice and cake there much better den normal la! food van and dining hall seems to hv destroyed my taste buds... then we went up to the new refurbished lvl4 with a beautiful full glass window beside the main orchard road. beautiful view, nice ambience and good food! had teh beng (iced tea) and 2 eggs also. good good!

my dad and i each got crystal casings for our fones now. i kept telling my dad its for protective purposes (cos he was reluctant to buy at first) but actl main purpose is cos it looks good. makes my fone look sleek. please my fone already gt a bit of chipping off fr dropping it 20 times over... ><

oh ya den i saw the 2006 MCLAREN MERCEDES model car! Kimi!!! argh SO BEAUTIFUL!!! $69.90... i want... told my dad i wanted le.... dunno how it'll go... beautiful.... >< I WANT!!!!
btw the new power ranger zords look so.... fake and plastic... no class, no feeling of POWER RANGERS man! no wonder 50% discount oso no one buy...

i dunno how my dad knows wat church i attend. there're so many churches at queensway yet when we passed by QBC he juz slowed down and asked "u wanna go in for service anot"

"i got a choice?"

"tt's e first time u're asking"

we went for lunch.

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today:

dammit its *censored* frustrating! i practiced day and nite for one *censored* week to mug math in e hope of saving my GPA 4. i go into the math test and do well, until the last qtn! and wat part did they test tt i din realli know how to do? not integration, not differentiation, but trigo equations!!!! i'm *censored* PISSED OFF!!! makes me feel damn failure la! f*** *censored* i was feeling seriously dejected after the test...

-i typed a whole paragraph on something else tt made me feel bad too, but i deleted e whole chunk... juz add this quote with my fren "we are nearly there but nvr there" sigh... -

and den i look at my cousins and frens around me.

and (not for e first time), i feel like a total failure, (not in academic or wtv sense i know, if nt i'll get eggs thrown at me for daring to say this) but yea... like every part of my life's screwed up... sigh...

2006-09-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

I BLOGGED!

2006-09-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

wahhh lots of stuff i keep thinking abt, budden once i dun type it down i forget le.... so i'd hv prob forgotten most of wat i wanna say >< anyway my grp gt 17/20 for tt hard slogged video! fallin ill, times at chin yang's hse and stuff, i muz say its one of e few projects i've enjoyed this yr! thnx to e nature of e project and the fun fun characters of mingxue boyi wenjun and chingyang! thnx guys! but wah lau we could hv gotten 19. aguss minused 2 marks (10%) for the video being long! wtf larh we spent SO MUCH time and effort on it if its long then let it be larh wah lau, or minus 1 mark. mins TWO leh! 10%... basket... now i need a 66% for CT to get GPA 4 for SS! i'm aiming for SS bio and math GPA4s. hopefully can get... aguss went to show all his classes our video larh crap! i was half naked in there acting as a cheeko in massage parlour... CRAP!!!! ARGH #*(%#(*&%*(# sacrifice... =(

chinese prelims was quite ok, hopefully i get higher marks for this... hopeful hopeful. i was at orchard mrt waiting for a bus, den this woman was shouting at her kids "i was at metro, den call u all come down dun want, den maria call me tell me u all watch porn movie at home! wat is this?!!!" omg i din know whether to be shocked at their tender age watching porn or laugh at the mere drama of it all...

SIA pilots today during their talk told me i cant be pilot due to my colour deficiency... wah lau!!!!!! this is prob e onli dream i hv for caree!!! (other den F1 racer or pop piper) BOO... ><>< the mechanical engineer was damn funny.
"we dun earn as much as lawyers, but at least we know what we do benefit e ppl!"

"wat's e prob with nissans? i'm a mechanical engineer and i love to look under e bonnet. but i drive it to work, drive back, work the spark plug and engine millions of times... and it works! wat's e prob with nissan?!"

" without engineering, ur stealth plane can do nth, and this is the only offensive move you can make. (he pointed the middle finger)"

gosh ang mohs are fun!

i think i've too big an ego that's so blardy fragile and unreasonably irritating... and my post as a BM prob helped to protect tt ego. no. i muz improve. poke me ppl, poke me. but den again, i dun wanna get pissed at u all or sth fr tt... see my big ego? damn. ><

mug mug mug. mug mug mug. mugging all the way (reminds me of the "christmas song" i made out of mugging last yr)

STAY HAPPY EVERYONE =)

2006-09-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel so alone, so helpless, a vegabond lost in his childhood city... sigh... wat's with me today. this is bad.

Dreamin'

2006-09-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I'd stay up and think of you

And I'd wish on a star

That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight

Till tomorrow,

I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Then here in my room,

Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me

And I wonder if you know I'm there

If you looked in my eyes

Would you see what's inside?

Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close

But so far, all I have are dreams of you

So, I wait for the day and the courage to say

How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I'll be dreaming of you tonight

Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Then here in my room,

Dreaming about you and me Ahhh...

I can't stop dreaming of you Ahhh...

I can't stop dreamin...

2006-09-17T19:08:00.000+08:00

these 2 days i think hv been relatively fruitful. mugging a lot of chinese. i'm still behind schedule tho. sigh... i feel satisfied at productivity, but scared of the exams. =( gogogo!

i get those occasional blues... the non-cca/non-family/non-frens/non-work blues... sigh... gets a bit more drastic with the tremendous stress i face nowadays...

went to newton food centre with my family for late night supper last nite... the food's good, ambience good too! i love it! :)

and i washed my car for the first time in my life. its like polishing ur uniform. its tedious, but i enjoy this manual work, and the satisfaction when u finally finish and get a beautiful new-looking car (its a new car anyway) or bb uniform. whee!!!

and i got new speakers for my comp. my monitor can wait for another month. it cost onli $19.90, so i cant complain much abt e quality beside my bose sounddock... xD

my mum says the 4 leafclover realli brings luck. she's struck 4D again... i hope my 4 leaf clover brings me luck in my own ways... ^^

2006-09-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

2006-09-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

well on request (erhem my tagboard xD) and upon some reflections i've decided to blog today... there's so many things i wanna talk about but new tots keep coming in and i cant reali remember wat i wanna say... oh yea my french 75. 1 GPA 3.6 confirmed. aiming for a few 4s like SS and Bio. =) i'm taking PMEH and a good decision too. Phy Math will gimme the entrance to the uni courses i'm prob taking: engineering or business. without chem or bio i cant take bio and chem engineering, sciences, medicine and sth else. none i'm interested. econs will help too. and history. my <3. why? i'm not very... strong in history, but its interesting, and mrs neoh over these 2 days, thru bio-terror, has taught me very impt lessons.

she told us "guys, there's a reason why geog lit and history are called humanities subjects. because it deals with humanity. when we deal with history, its not onli abt facts, its about lessons learnt. look at wat the nazis did. do we wanna repeat it again? do u think with onli sciences u can be a respectable scientist? no. scientists without ethics, like we have seen, makes no contribution nor progress to society. here in history, lit or geog, we teach u lifeskills. humanity. they may seem invalubale for making big bucks, and yea i tell u if u wanna make big bucks, history isnt the thing. but that's not the point. the point is we educate you, not teach you." -13h sept.

today, after she told us about sth that happened in RJC, she told us "hey guys, the point about education here is that we gotta learn to pick up from mistakes. c'mon we all fail. i dun expect you guys to do perfectly for every assignment. we fail. but more importantly, we get up, learn, and MOVE ON. no matter wat happens, life goes on. and u're not alone. if u feel stressed out, cant take it anymore, juz grab anyone u can and talk to him/her! dun keep stuff to urself... dictators nvr always make correct decisions, a panel of advisors and ministers helping does. don't worry, nvr give up. get help"

mr. soo. mrs neoh. mr wong. my 4 yrs history teachers. all i can grp under those who are knowledgable, interesting, and those who have strong characters. good hearts. i respect you teachers man. hormat kahadapan hormat!

i juz read e newspaper. some student who couldnt afford to pay sch fees stole, and got 7yrs in jail and 24strokes of the cane. he deserves the punishment yes, but does he realli deserve 24strokes and 7yrs? he's a freshman c'mon. he had no money to pay, and the reasons behind may be so complicated, can't there be some leeway or sth? 7yrs is gonna destroy his future. 24strokes a scar for life, physically and mentally. i dun agree with this man.

my 19inch monitor and comp speakers both died on me... now using 15inch acer and my iPod earphones. sigh... gotta get new monitor and earphones. and comex juz ended. geeez....

today was kinda in a sucky mood... so many late nites and all the work piling up, and hormonal inbalance again i guess... ohwell... ><

2006-09-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

my dad cheered. then i cheered. then my dad cheered. but i had the final cheer as kimi raikkonen swept the pole position, 0.002 seconds faster than michael schumacher. YEA MAN!!! omg this is like the sweetest way to gain pole pos larh. final sec, a mere 0.002 sec in front of your opponent, who's pressured to wow his team's home crowd. i hope he wins the race tml. no more of the vitantonio liuzzi crap. McLaren's first win this season. c'mon guys! gargh i can't watch e race tml, will be at shinhwa concert... sigh... =(

Go Go McLaren Mercedes!

oh yea, congrats to the BQ team! 2nd pos is a good result! prouda u guys man! =)

2006-09-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

I MUST UNGLUE MYSELF FROM THE COMP... AND F1! ><

2006-09-07T20:14:00.000+08:00

this hols has been sufficiently interesting, but definately too short... monday mug, tues band. wed went out with mich. wah we supposed to shop... but talk talk talk talk talk walk walk walk walk walk yea hardly shopped. got lots of stuff i wanna buy but wait for my dad :D mich brought me to chijmes. which is TOTALLY BEAUTIFUL! (see pic on top) its like u enter the magical world of Harry Potter. outside's juz the bustling city, but inside is so serene, so beautiful, so ahhh... ^^ oh yea, we had iced mocha frappucino at starbucks! wahhhhhhh haven... den we went raffles city, whose revamped basement is simply awesome... gives the modern metropolitan, yet laid-back easy pace-of-life feling... we finally decided dinner at genki sushi cos i wanted sushi and newyork newyork was overcrowded. the food was fresh and good! but the price no... i bombed everything... sigh... my choice... and hokkaido green tea ice cream! it feels weird at first, but ends off on a totally beautiful note! yummm... t'was good! but too lil time... xD

today... woke up with diahorrea... took 3 diahorrea pills (those i had 1 mth back) to get myself back... couldnt go for project meeting cos i was in e toilet most of e time... omg... >< but i still refuse to believe its got anythin to do with genki. its food was FRESH! yea then after tt kayaking with chennie. i was kinda tired after so much er... exertion in the morning. so yea i admit i was a lil stone... but yea after a while i guess it got better? there was wind and sun today... perfect kayaking conditions. (when i mean kayaking i mean 20min paddling 1hr40min lazing, talking and floating) yupp! and guess wat. I BROKE MY PULL UP RECORD! ever since injuring my arm 1+yrs back, i havent been progressing much. today, in a spur of the moment, i did 12 pull ups! woot! subsequently i could onli manage 4 x 4 tho, but after bathing i did a 9 pull up stint. yay!

we den went for dinner (onli chennie eat. i no money) at marina. secret recipe, smack beside genki. xD/>< wah the irish lamb stew smelled and tasted (yea i helped a lil) delicious! not bad not bad!

ohwell better get back to lord of the flies. 7yr olds killing a 7yr old isnt very... appetizing....

2006-09-06T13:38:00.000+08:00

my incomplete shogun megazord... cant find e rest of e pieces... =(

the awesome and commanding white tiger megazord! and the tor-like turtle-dinosaur thing... (dunno when it came about...)

my ALL-TIME FAVOURITE!!! gogo power rangers!!! titanus (green ranger's zord) and Tor! (the huge turtle)

my "group foto"! xD the last zord i hv in there + all the other spares, like the white falcon (in the power rangers movie) which few were able to land their hands on!

the green ranger's flute and white ranger's er... sword!!! woohooo! i oso hv the red pink yellow blue black rangers' sword bow dagger spear axe, but not as commanding as this lar!

ok i was feeling a lil cranky this morning, and a lil childish, and therefore, i removed all the cars from the back of my bed, and uncovered my lil box of treasures.... ALL MY POWER RANGER TOYS!!!! last time each zord cost $89.90 (nowadays it costs $100) and + all the other thousands of accessories that i can't find now... and the swords flutes wtv... if i sold my whole collection on Ebay now i dunno how much it'll cost larh! but no way, i'm keeping it. anyone wanna come my hse to play with them? i know longkuan does... and he can bring his ninja megazords and stuff! POWER!!! =))

2006-09-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

saw mrs toh (HPPS discipline mistress) at ghim moh yesterday with her hubby... no more spaghetti hair haha xD but still look like last time.

today woke up at 2pm. cos i slept at 4am discussing with charis wat course to go for and which uni to go for (cos she been thru uni le so shd ask her) she tells me im e first to say NTU is hip... and i saw a double degree engineering and business... but its 5yrs! gee how... engineering or businesss.... >< NUS NTU or overseas? (unlikely)

did integration and went swimming and tanning today. felt great man (the latter) veh relaxing! now still doig integration. math makes me fear it b4hand, den sometimes enjoy it or hate it larh ><

heard steve irwin died... geee... nice guy lar... den my mum bought stingray home for dinner... she said "revenge" xD yumm! and sotong oso... fr marsiling. woot! $10 so much stingray. good good!

i'm gonna enjoy tml and wed yay! ^^ hopefully thurs too! unless work overwhelms me... =(

2006-09-02T02:04:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRQ4TmlpRgo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKCP9lNpjPc

OMG POWER RANGERS!!! AHHHHHHH MY CHILDHOOD!!! when i saw this i was smiling ear to ear larh! the zords, the morphing and all the stuff... WHEE! and btw i din know kimberly was SO CHIO... omg... ok nvm. AHH TOMMY GREEN RANGER!!!! all my zords and stuff....

ok yea i'm up till 2am.. watching this.... ahh the memories!!!! <3

2006-08-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

i cant stand it... i cant believe it... my boots are uber SHINY!!!! omg omg omg.... i'm VERY proud of my boots... LOVE YA!!! =DDD

hey come to think of it, mr edgar's scolding for e founders men was good.... its like bringing up our dignity... yea...

ohwell...

2006-08-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

omg i'm like trying to chiong finish my cloze passages here for french... and i get this cloze:

Tout a commencé par un doux après midi, alors que nous ne nous connaissions pas encore. Nous étions tous les deux gênés de cette rencontre organisée par une amie commune. Mais en même temps nous étions heureux tout simplement d'être là. Chacun de notre côté vivions des choses difficiles et nous avions besoin de tendresse.

Doucement le temps filait sans que nous nous en rendions compte et peu à peu nous commencions à nous connaître. Tu me faisais du bien et je pouvais oublier tout ce qui6 me tracassait.

Pendant que nous parlions, la radio jouait en musique de fond. Comme par magie notre chanson préférée à tous les deux passa. Nous nous sommes levés et nous avons dansé là au beau milieu de ma chambre notre premier slow. À la fin, nous nous sommes regardés et là sans le vouloir nous nous sommes embrassés. Ce fut le plus doux des baisers que j'ai connu.
Par la suite, nous étions collés l'un à l'autre et tout ce que nous faisions était de nous regarder dans les yeux. À un moment donné, j'ai ressenti le besoin de graver tous les détails de ton visage dans ma mémoire comme si c'était la dernière fois que nous nous voyions. De cette façon, jamais je n’ oublierais cet après-midi.
Pendant plus d’ une heure, je suis restée là à passer mes doigts sur ton visage. C'était vraiment un moment magique ! Nous avons gardé le silence pendant tout ce temps. Nous n'entendions que les battements de nos cœurs qui battaient la chamade.
Finalement, lorsque je fus certaine de ne jamais t'oublier, tu m'as regardée et nous nous sommes embrassés. Je crois que je peux dire avec certitude que c'est de là que notre histoire a commencé car déjà le lendemain tu m'appelais pour planifier notre prochaine rencontre. J'étais aux anges.

dammit. its such a beautifully written love story.... BUT ITS NOT WAT I NEED RITE NOW THANKS!!!! distraction. ><

2006-08-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

LEGEND!!!!!
TITUS MY PSL!!!! he cheat me tell me BB can learn guitar... now dne i learn 4 chords from LK. TSKTSK
IVAN!!!! veh funny guy larh! very frenly oso. cant forget u dude! u made my BB life fun!
UNCLE WONG! ppl like him in HQ are the reason why BB's ever so fun and meaningful! u rock ~~dude!~~ UNCLE!
mrs khoo, ben ong, longkuan, me, mr siow, ben khoo (NEW BM), mr heng! i love e band! no longer mine in tt sense but who cares? ^^
Nic Cai! Fellow McLaren supporter! and he's damn nice guy too! like there for me in BQ and stuff... too bad he's bz with uni studies... eh u slim down liao leh... eat more larh!
LONGKUAN!!!!!!! oh my even in this foto u still look like a big bro to me. i still treat u as one. u... (to finish this sentence will take 100 lines and stuff) ROCK!!!!!! =DDDDDD
Mr. Siow! Captain 60th! (he always call me buddy de) R.E.S.P.E.C.T

annual parade rocked! it was good! not for e awards, but yea... esp tt time when i heard abt chee keen and his speech... i was reflecting a lot... it made me think and like... "wat am i actl here for" and den i saw all my frens and the big home of 60th there having fun... tt's wat its for man. FIRST FOR BOYS. =)

2006-08-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

wahhh today dunno why still so tired... tho i had quite ample sleep... nxet week and week after next gotta go back to BBHQ. next week to engrave my name on best boy medallion, week after next to collect it. gee. ok. anyway, band today was quite fun haha. polish pipe and stuff... dinner was yea... ok... everything was ok. except my mood for e day. dunno why. chennie's always so fun to be with. damn funny larh. xD

oh haha hope you like e present! haha! ^^

tired. betta go sleep. tml polish. i need to mug. i always say tt. ><

2006-08-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

i juz read thru my account on melbourne, looked thru my whole "my picture' collection... how fast time has flown... but yet i still remember the details, the feelings right there right then... <3 larh. i think i need to tell myself i do love RI, albeit all the stress and stuff... ohwell... its juz the "common perception" no?

2006-08-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

wah why cant u juz let me be who i am? am i not excelling enuff in my own rights? i've attained everythin possible a BB Boy can get. i'm the Best Boy, i'm a Founders Man, i'm a Band Major. and i've found wat i love. why do u always juz keep throwing newspaper articles of others who have excelled in their own rights and expect me to be like them? they know chinese orchestra programming, got big dreams living big dreams fine. that's their life. i have MY life! why i go all out to get all these awards? yes i want it for my personal glory, but ultimately its for YOU! for u to be proud of me and finally accept me for who i am. but no, "hey yong qian look at this guy. in RI. so pro wahhh and u liddat alraedy complaining" i'm not whoever's on the cover page ok?